I know that you dont want me to say this to you through writing but i don't think I can face you right now in the state i am in at the moment so instead of speaking i am writing so please dont throw this away. I don't really know where to begin and where to end but i should start with im sorry, i never did manage to apologize to you for my past actions over these teo years because i couldn't get close to you. I was a bird in a cage and once i got to spread my wings and sore i got to see you again. Every single day i thought of you and the horrible things you said to me but i knew i deserved it and not just because i harrassed you but also because i Rejected your feelings for me this way to but once i saw you i did everything In my power to show you i grew up and eventually you started talking to me more i even got you to laugh once and you even showed pride for me to. After that we grew some more and eventually everyone from the times before became more distant and i tried to get you more used to me being near you by sitting across from you on the buss and nkt looking at you as often, i even got engaged once just so you could see i am bigger than before and your no longer who my world revolves around but that only made you more upset. You never said anything if i remember right but i know its you who threw the rocks and you did tell me to back off once but orher than that you seem relatively calmer when im around you now and that makes me glad. Pretty soon im going to transfer schools, i might go to an autism or night school based on my family's connections but i dont think i will be staying in public school anymore but thats the only way i can see you so i need to get this letter to you and quickly but i know you will just throw it away so instead i will read it for everyone to hear and if i pray hard enough you as well. Next i want you to know that i love you more than anyone else in this whole world every single night i spent away from you i cried because of how much i missed you but eventually those days turned into weeks and then into months but i still remembered you all the way up to this point but i forgot what you looked and sounded like and im scared that will happen again but even if it does i know that i will still love you until the end of time and dont you ever forget that. And now finally i know i screwed up in the past and have made you ver very sad so if you reject my offer i understand but do you think we can be friends? I want to fix what i broke and have tried to run away so many times and pretty soon it might be happening but i know leaving you here like this is wrong so whatever happens next between us is your choice, i can go off into the world and never see you again or finally be able to be someone in your life, i can run away from my problems or help you with yours. The descion is up to you so please think hard on it and remember who is asking you this is me
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