Dorinda
Rain fell upon my skin lightly as I walked around in a daze. My thought were going a thousand miles and hour and I just couldn't seem to get a break. Mama just passed, my marriage is falling about and now the board is trying to strip me of my ministerial title.
I kept my head down as I kept walking not wanting anyone passing by to see me cry. I had been walking for about 30 minutes before I came across a bridge that was above a small river. I paused for a second before walking over to the rail to watch the water flow.
The waters were crashing up against the rocks the way my thoughts were clashing with my morals. I truly wanted to end it all at this moment. It seemed like there was nothing good coming my way; only heartaches and devastation.
I slowly began to give up and let my thoughts take over as I was standing at the rail and before I knew it I was on the other side getting ready to jump. My tears blurred my vision as I looked down at water and my grip on the railing slowly loosened up but before I could let go someone grabbed me and pulled me back.
"Woah woah what you doing ma?" I heard them say. I quickly wiped my eyes before looking back at the person who stopped me. It was a young lady with braids, brown eyes and beautiful brown skin. I was so caught up looking at her that I didn't answer.
"Listen I don't know what has you on the other side of this bridge but I can tell you right now that it ain't worth it." She said as she held onto me to ensure that I didn't slip and fall.
"I just.. I feel so hopeless right now. Nothing is working in my favor, everyone and everything is against me right now. I don't feel like I can go on." I said softly as tears began to well up in my eyes.
"If they against you then they was never really for you in the first place. And it shouldn't matter who against you. My granny always told me that if God is with you then who can ever be against you? So don't let what everyone else says effect you cause it shouldn't matter anyway. God got the final say." She remarked which made me think of the words of wisdom my mother passed down to me before she passed.
"Doe you gotta stop worrying about me baby. You don't need to be stressing yourself out over things you can't control. Just give them to the Lord for he has the final say."
Tears rushed to my eyes and I turned to look at the water one more time before stepping back against the railing. The young lady grabbed my other hand and helped me over the railing before pulling me away from the side of the bridge.
"I don't know how you did it but you said just what I needed to hear. Thank you so much." I said as I wiped my tears.
"No problem. Do you need a ride home?" She asked as she pointed over to her car that she has parked on the side of the road.
"It's fine I can walk back home." I said declining her offer as I pointed in the direction of where 'home' was.
"Nah let me drop you off. It's raining and you too pretty to be getting sick. Plus I gotta make sure you don't try to jump again." She said as she started walking me towards her car.
She opened the passenger door for me and closed it behind me once I got in. She also got in and turned the heat up since we had been getting rained on. I then gave her the directions to my house and she began to take me home, not fully knowing that her words of encouragement were my saving grace.
The drive back to my house was relatively quiet besides the radio playing. I was still feeling a lot of different emotions so I just sat in my seat and allowed them to pass throughout the ride.
"I probably shoulda asked you this earlier but what's your name ma?" The young lady asked as she glanced over at me.
"It's alright and my name is Dorinda. What's yours?" I asked without even turning to look over at her.
"My name's Temperance but everybody call me T." She answered as we were pulling up to my house.
"Well T thank you for the ride. And for stopping me." I said as I undid my seatbelt and got ready to get out.
"No problem ma but hold on." She replied as she lifted up her arm rest and grabbed a piece of paper and a pen. She quickly wrote down her name and number before handing it to me.
"I know you don't know me for real but if you need a friend or need some help give me a call. I'll pull through fa you." She said with a smile before unlocking the car doors so I could get out.
I just nodded and stepped out of the car before walking to my front door. I took my keys out of my coat pocket and unlocked the door before turning around and waving goodbye to her.
As I pushed opened the door I prayed that there wouldn't be an issue. Sadly this prayer went unanswered because as soon as I walked in the door it was basically a war zone.
"Where have you been D? I been waiting for you for over an hour!" Greg shouted before I could even get in the door all the way.
"I went for a walk Greg. Jesus, I'm here now so what's the problem?" I asked in annoyance as I took my coat and my heels off.
"When for a walk this late at night? I just saw somebody drop you off! Where were you Dorinda?!" He shouted which caused me to look at my watch. It was barely 8:30 and this man is shouting about me being out late.
"Gregory I don't have time to do this with you today alright? I'm tired and I just want to go to bed." I sighed as I tried to walk past him but he blocked my path.
"Boy if you don't move out my way." I said lowly as I closed my eyes to keep myself calm.
"I'll move when you answer my question. Where were you Dorinda?" He said as he stood over me.
"First of all, back up. Secondly, I went out for a walk like I said. So please move out of my way." I said once more as I pushed past him but before I could get past him fully he grabbed my wrist. I whipped around and shoved him back with a scowl on my face.
"I know you did not just grab me!" I said in disbelief.
"Stop walking away from me when I'm talking to you!" He shouted as he went to grab for me again but I moved out of his reach before he could.
"This conversation is over Gregory and you have one more time to put your hands on me and I promise you, you'll regret it." I said pointing my finger in his face before heading upstairs.
I went into my bedroom and closed and locked the door so he couldn't bother me for the rest of the night. I sat on the side of my bed with a sigh as I thought about today's events.
Lord help me please.
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