Why Me?

Crushed

It was Tara calling, along with Amelia. Those two always think I'm dating Mila.
"No, we're just friends!" Shouted Mila.
"Yea, friends!" I said to back her up.
"Sure, we'll see how long the we're just friends shit will last." Tara remarked.
"Plus! I have a boyfriend!" Mila said.
I felt my heart sunk and I let go of her hand.
"Huh?" I was to all over to say anything else to the point that's all that came out.
After all those things. She gets a boyfriend? Love is, well. Complicated... It's hard I suppose.
"That's what I wanted to announce to you today Ryn!"
"Oh."
I wanted to cry but I held back.

-Break-

I sat on the bleachers and I stared at Mila laughing along with her boyfriend. I looked at the sky and back down. I felt my eyes burn as tears rolled down from my eyes. I tried to wipe them, but more came. I felt someone put their arm around me.
"You good?" A voice called.
"Janelle?" I said.
I looked up to her. The first thing I see are her blue faded tips. That's how I recognize her. I huddled close to her and cried silently. As tears soaked into her shirt, I realized that I'm being a bother right now.
"I-I'm sorry Jan, I don't mean to be a bother..."
"No worries, let it out. It isn't healthy to hold it."
Mila saw me crying and rushed towards me. She sat next to me and put her hand on my thigh.
"You okay Ryn?"
"Yea. Just stressed I guess..."
I got up from the bleachers and explained to them I wanted some time alone.
I found the place where Mila showed me. I sat down on the bench and stared at the white flowers and the wind blew them off the trees. It was a calming scene. I just wanna tell her how I feel. But I can't. I don't wanna ruin anything. Staying friends is the best I suppose... It hurts though... I can't stand this.
I zone out for a moment then I feel a hand on my shoulder. Mila?
"Sorry I couldn't stop her Ryn..." I look back and it's Janelle catching her breath.
"Oh no worries." I replied.
Mila sits next to me and puts he arms around my shoulder and pulls me closer to her.
I look at her and she's still wearing my jacket.
"Feeling better?" Mila asked.
"I guess..."
Mila looks at me and smiles. Her smile is so comforting. It's bright and warm. It's like spring warm if you get what I mean.
"Wanna talk about it to get it off your mind?" She proceeded to say.
"Uhm. I don't think I should..."
"No worries!"
I started to tear up again. I held on to her arm and cried softly
"It's that bad isn't it..?" Mila responded.
"I-I'm sorry. I'm so sorry..." I whispered.
"What are you apologizing for?"
"I don't know... I-I don't know..."
She pulls me in for a hug.
"You shouldn't pay attention to me right now Mila. You should go back to your boyfriend..."
"He can wait. Right now, I wanna make you feel at least better."
I layed my head against her shoulder.
"I'm here don't worry..." Mila said to try comfort me.

-After school-

As I drove my car home, I hear a notification from my phone. I picked up my phone. A text from Mila... As I text back-BEEP BEEP! CRASH!!!