I can't even explain life right now...so overwhelming might cover it...but so would "I hate everything". I don't know if it's the teenage angst or the chronic depression or the anxiety attacks. But I just give up. As of right now--I am in the 'I Don't Care' phase. But whatever. The happy-go-lucky me has been dead since I was 5. I miss it to be honest, the not caring, the not worrying if you would make it to the next day without feeling like you're going to get beat up in school, the feeling of joy for just being alive. Now I don't know if I'll be able to make it to the next day without wishing I wasn't here, that I could curl up in a ball and nobody would notice, that the feeling of guilt and remorse would just back off for once. The feeling that I wouldn't need a partial scholarship to pay for college. But eh. What can I do about it?
Make good decisions and know that you're loved so very much.
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Welcome to Wonderland
SpiritualDo you ever feel like you don't belong? Or that you'll never find a true passion? WELCOME TO MY ENTIRE LIFE. helpful little tidbits too! I'm rating this PG-13 because I feel like it's a safe thing to do, some parts might become dark.
