HURT| Hoseok X BTS
# Just a feeling for others but pain for someone who is going throught it.
# Sometimes it's better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel.
Because it hurts badly when you come to know that they can hear you but They ca...
Surprise I knew I told That I will publish it on 31 August but I was just joking. I was not gonna have my readers (cutie) wait. So I am here. Hope you will enjoy the chapter No Hate to Any Idol. Enjoy 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
Hoseok POV
Here I was again standing in my bathroom infront of my mirror looking at myself and then at my arms or should I say the scars and marks on my arms.
Yes I cutted myself. I harm my own body. But who will worry. It's not like I have people who are always there for me. It's only Me and Myself.
I was busy in my thoughts suddenly someone shouted
Hoseok Where are You? Come out it's time for lunch.
I recognised the voice. It was Jin Hyung.
I immediately washed my arms since blood was still floating from my arms, came out from the bathroom and wore a long sleeved shirt so that I can hide my marks.
Then I went towards the dining room. There I saw all of them were sitting there for lunch waiting for someone. Maybe Me.
I went towards them and sat on my seat. I was sitting between Jin Hyung and Yoongi Hyung.
Jin Hyung serves us the lunch. I was about to take a bite but some small voice inside me said
You are getting fatter.
Eat less.
You should go on a diet.
Look at your members they look so fit and now look at yourself you look so ugly and fat.
Just starve
Maybe the voices are right. I should go on a diet. All my members look very fit and handsome and here I am looking ugly and fat.
Hoseok Why are you not eating?
I looked up and saw it was Jin Hyung. How can I tell him. If I tell them maybe they will also laugh at me.
I am not hungry Jin Hyung. You all may continue. I will just go in my room.
I said as I stood up from my seat. I was about to buy a voice stopped me.
Hobi come and sit here. Right now.
It was Yoongi Hyung. Since he is the only one who call me Hobi. I sighed as I know I have to obey him. I turned around and then again sat on my seat.
Hobi you gotta eat something. Look at yourself you are becoming very thin.
He thinks I am thin. Is he saying just to make me happy or is it the truth?
I don't think it's the truth since I myself know how fat I am.
I just nodded and then said
Hyung but I am really not hungry right now.
I lied. I was very hungry. But I have to keep myself away from food.
Ok. But sit with us till we finish.
Ok Hyung
I said. They all started eating. I was just looking at them. Yoongi Hyung even asked me a few times to eat but I denied.
***
I was sitting on my bed scrolling throught Instagram but something caught my attention.
It was comments from our fans whom we call Army. I started reading them. Most of them were hate comments for me.
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[ I don't mean any of those bad words for Hoseok. If you feel offended then I am so Sorry]
Like this many comments were there. I just closed my phone. But they are right. I don't have talent. I am not capable of becoming a member of the world's biggest band.
***
We were now in the dance practising for our new song. The choreography was very tough but somehow I learned it easily.
We were doing the practice suddenly my right leg twisted and I fell in the ground. The members cam towards me rushing. They all started to ask me
Hoseok are you Ok?
Is it hurting?
Shall we call the doctor?
I was not able to utter a single word beacuse of the pain. So I just shooked my head telling them No.
They all calmed down. I then found some strength and then said
I am fine. No need to worry. Let's start the practice again.
I said as I tried to stand up but failed. I again tried but all in vien. I can't stand up. My leg was hurting so much.
Just than V said
Hyung you can't even stand up and you are saying to practise. He will never take care of himself. We have to take care. Jungkook help me take him to his room.
Coming Hyung.
I refused but they forced me and now I was just sitting on my bed.
The doctor came and told me it's nothing that serious but I will not be able to walk for 1 or 2 days.
They all left for the practise.
I again made them worried. They have been doing so much things for me and here I am just being a burden on them.
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Hey How are you How was the 1st chapter Please do vote and tell me in comments And one more thing Don't hate me for writing those words for Hoseok. I am not a hater of him Infact he is my 1st and recent bias. It hurts me also writing all those words which are not even true. Hope you understand Meet you in next chapter Till then By By 👋👋
