I've been so distant I know love
I've just been feeling everything
And when I'm hurtin' I go numb
Then I stop feelin' anything
And when I'm spiralin' out of control
I won't let you in
I get so bitter and put up my walls
And hurt you again
You know I shot myself down
Just to block out the pain
And I've been tryna be better
But I keep fading away
And when I'm caught up in my emotions
I'll push you out again
'Cause when I hate myself enough
I hurt the ones I love
I hurt the ones I love
