after all that we've been through, the simulation, the despair, recovery, everything, we've all stayed the same magically.
besides kazu,, he's,, different.
he seemed genuinely happy during the killing game, and i don't remember what he was like during despair, it was all a blur..
but after recovering, kazuichi went back to live with his dad apparently.
i've never been to his house, he'd always make shitty excuses.
i dunno if he's even got a mom.
if so he's never mentioned her.
and he's different. he acts the same but he,, i can't explain it.
its like he's not actually here with us.
something happened to him, and i'm sure of it.
but i just don't know what.
"hey fuyu..!"
kazuichi ran up to me with a smile, a different one. its not the same bright smile. it was forced.
it was a convincing act, to be honest i'd probably believe it if i didn't know him well.
"hey sou!"
i greeted with a smile, also pretty forced with the horrible thoughts and possibilities on my mind.
"how are ya?"
he asked, genuinely curious as we started to walk back to my place.
"i'm ok, i guess, how about you?"
i asked, making sure to listen carefully to his answer.
"i'm okay too,, just tired,,"
he muttered, he probably wanted to add that last bit to convince me that he was different because he was tired.
that spark in his eyes is gone, sometimes it would come back when he was with all of us.
i've video called him before, he tried to keep it short and had to end it cause his dad called him.
i've never met his dad, he's never talked about him.
i'm positive that he's told hajime something about him though, he mentioned it to me.
the walk was quiet, kazuichi didn't talk much even when we got to my place, nodding to everything i said.
it had been around 4 hours, we watched a movie and stuff.
the sparks in his eyes were back, he seemed to be acting more like himself, good.
it was currently 7pm and kaz was supposed to stay over.
"oi, sou, wanna eat somethin?"
i asked, he nods happily and we sit down to eat, just us two (peko was out with friends).
"you're oddly quiet."
i remark, he chuckled a bit.
"i'm tired, like i said."
he answers, eating the bento that we got on the way.
"you should sleep."
i sighed, getting out of my chair as we both finished our food, leaving the two bowls to be cleaned up by maids.
"no,, i wanna hang out with you!"
he giggled, i smirked and laughed softly.
"lets watch a movie..?"
i suggest, he nods.
well, he ended up falling asleep anyways with his head on my shoulder.
so i texted hajime while the movie continues in the background.
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• hajime
oi hajime
8:09PM✔️
yeah fuyuhiko?
8:10PM✔️
i need to talk to you.
8:11PM✔️
oh, uh ok what about?8:11PM✔️
kazuichi, hes different and ik he told u something.
8:11PM✔️
yeah but i'm not telling you, its something he should tell you on his own.
8:12PM✔️
i won't tell him about it! just fucking tell me, man! i'm worried shitless about him!!8:12PM✔️
its not about whether you'll tell him, its something deep okay? he should tell you on his own. just trust him and let
him open up.
8:12PM✔️
fine, fucking damnit.
8:12PM✔️
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well shit. i guess it is something and i'm not overthinking.
kaz is still sound asleep on my shoulder.
i bring him closer to me.
"mmn.. f-fuyuhiko.."
he mumbles, i wasn't sure if he was still sleeping or not but he soon sat more upright to my disappointment.
"yeah?"
i replied, a worry in the back of my mind nagging me about if he saw me messaging hajime.
"thanks for everything.."
he mumbles, i smiled softly and wrap my arms around his shoulder, hugging him tightly.
"no need to thank me,, sou."
i smile, hugging him closer.
kazuichi yawned, soon falling asleep in my embrace.
i let him sleep on me since he looked overworked.
i fell asleep too, with both of our heads on each other's shoulders.
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"hnnngh.."
my eyes cracked open, my head was fuzzy.
i feel so dissociated,, fuck.
where am i—
my thoughts were stopped as i heard a soft snore and my brain registered that my head was on someones shoulder.
my heart jumped out of my body, and then i realized, ah, right, its just fuyuhiko.
phew..
"fu-uhm.."
i started, but stopped myself from talking, he should sleep.. i awkwardly grabbed my phone from next to me on the bed and turned the brightness down to check the time.
ah, its 5 am.
luckily, no messages from dad.
i told him in advance.
"k-kaz.."
fuyuhiko muttered, his eyes opening slightly.
"s-sorry— i didn't mean to wake you.."
i apologized, fuyuhiko smiled and nodded, pulling me closer.
my body tingles, everything felt like static, any time someone touched me.
is that what being touch starved is like? it feels unpleasant when someone touches me.. but not with fuyuhiko..
with fuyuhiko it's different,, i want him to hold me tight, i don't get that same static sensation when he touches me..
it feels safe, comfortable.
"mm.. its fine.. i wanted to ask you something anyways.."
he mumbled, hugging me tighter.
"what did you want to ask..?"
i murmured, leaning my head on his shoulder.
"what happened?.."
he asked, i looked at him curiously.
"what happened..? uhm, what do you mean..?"
i looked to the side uncomfortably, he sat up.
"you're.. different.."
He murmured.
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