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14

"What time is it Mom?" Deidara asked, he was already wearing pajamas, his arm around her shoulder.

"It's 9 pm, you have to sleep right now" Kushina said, she opens his room door and helps him to lay on his bed.

"Say mom, did Naruto becomes tall?" Deidara asked, Kushina turned her head to him.

"Naruto is still same" She said, she bend her body and patted his head "Don't worry, there's still a chance that you can see us. Okay?"

"But that chance won't happen i think?" he then turned to the other side, his back showing to her "I wasn't expecting too"

Kushina, as a mom, it's hurt her even she don't have that condition, it's stung her heart hearing him giving up, he gave up his art, his school, his goal, everything he loves to do, faded... everything.

"At this age, i still think, miracles exist honey" she said and exited the room, before she exited she also switched off the light. Deidara feels alone, he layed down straight, he looks like staring at the ceiling, but in his point of view, he sees darkness. He raised his hand on the top of his face, close open close open it.

"Miracle exist? I hope so..." Deidara mumbled, he rubbed his eyes and did the same thing earlier "I can't still see..." a tears rolled out from his right eye, he was expecting to see again, he just lied earlier so his mom wouldn't get worried "Maybe Madara sensei was right?"

"Most of you here realize, while growing older, you guys started to feel some sadness, depression and suffering, well everyone will experience this curse, curse you can't avoid and no magic way to shoo it away idiots, everyone, your mom, dad, brother,sister granny or whatever you are, you will suffer in pain and wished to stay young, no pain, no sadness, only happiness, well kids still don't know that feelings, you'll feel it when you are growing old"

"I just want to stay young... No pain... No sadness... Only happiness, i hope Naruto will never feel those..." Deidara mumbled "Until when will i live in darkness? Until i grow old? Until Naruto marries someone? Parents hair turn into white? How would i take care of them if i can't even take care of my self?" He face palmed "Maybe i'm their curse? I'm older than my brother but i got treated like a young ones, i should help mom doing stuff here, talk dad about school, and i should study... Wears graduation outfit... I miss creating sculpture damn..." he said and bites his blanket "I have so many idea right now, at this time i'm still doing my stuff instead of sleeping... Ugh just close your eyes and sleep" he shut his eyes close.... But opens again "I wonder why Itachi is so kind to me... Is there something said to him? Hayst how i wish i can see him even one more time..." he turm to the other side again, didn't mention this, he have a bear beside him, Naruto placed that big teddy bear with him. Deidara just hugged the bear, he was facing on the wall, trying to sleep...

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A tears rolled out from his eyes and sniffs sound.

"Why am i feeling so sad?" he mumbled under the bear "Why do i feel i wanted to end my life right now? Why do i feel i want to leave this darkness? Why does my everything inside me telling me to rest and leave the earth? Why am i feeling this? Why does there are so many thoughts inside my head? I just want to sleep" the tears wont stop falling "i wanted to sleep, i wanted to sleep" he mumbled multiple times, both of his hands covered his ears and won't stop mumbling, he didn't noticed the sound of the door open, it was just Minato, he went near Deidara mumbling that he wants to sleep.

'It's look like he can't sleep right now' Minato thought while looking at him 'Mah i'll just tell him some stories i think?'

"Stop that Deidara" Minato was about to tap him then-

"I wanted sleep, i wish i'll just die" Minato grabbed him by both of his shoulder. Deidara was suprised about it.

"DON'T SAY THAT!" He was mad, he was mad that he is wishing to die, well who's father won't get mad? Deidara was trembling but still, his tears don't want to stop falling.

"WHAT WAS THAT?!" Kushina worried shouted and enters the room, Naruto also follows his mom.

"I can't, i can't live in this darkness anymore, it's my fault too-" Minato pulled him into a comfort embrace, hia face hitting his dad's chest. Deidara just feeling alone, he wants someone will hug him and comfort him.

"Don't worry, we are always here for you, don't say that again, someday you can see a light again and achieve your goals" Minato said while rubbing his head, his voice wasn't mad anymore, it's sounds comforting. "I didn't know you were suffering all this time and thinking about that..." he mumbled.

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Before he close the door, he glance again to him, he was comfortable sleeping now and then he closed the door. Naruto is already sleeping.

"I can't see him suffering... It's really hurt here" Kushina grabed her chest where her heart "It's bleeding here, i want him to have a better future and achieve his life goal" Minato put his around her.

"Let's hope for him and tell him not to give up this life" He said, she just nodded at him, they started to walk going to their bedroom.

"I didn't know he's hiding his pain inside him and never tells to anyone... Is he having depression?" Minato looks at her curiously "He seems thinking so many, like he was asking his self about this or that..."

"While taking care of our older son, we need to touch his feeling to avoid those sad thoughts of his, Naruto will never let bad happen to him" Minato said and opens their door.

"Naruto is growing..."