𖥔𖥕「 𝔤𝔬𝔡𝔰 𝔠𝔞𝔫 𝔟𝔢 𝔠𝔯𝔲𝔢𝔩」𖥕𖥔

- Emotional Breakdown -

𝕎𝕒𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤: 𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕥𝕒𝕚𝕟𝕤-(Manga spoilers and Angst)

{No one's pov}

Akaza could be seen in a cave, going back and forth, in total anger and with a little fear. You may wonder the reason isn't it? Well, Akaza was fighting with the strong pillar of fire, Kyojuro Rengoku, and he was about to finish him, when the sun began to rise, thus forcing Akaza to leave the fight.

And now Akaza is like this; he didn't want to find out what Muzan would say or do, if he told him that; He not only fail to kill the pillar, but he also failed to kill the inferior hank hunters that accompanied him.

Even if Akaza avoided Muzan, sooner or later he would find him, and he would surely be very angry.

It was the end of the line, he had failed and now he had to deal with the consequences of being someone so weak. He sees that he is still not strong enough, he needs to be stronger and stronger!

If he's strong he won't anger his master, he can crush Douma and being uppermoon two, he can protect Koyuki!

Wait... Koyuki?

Who is Koyuki?

He doesn't remember that person, after all all his memories were erased from his mind as soon as he became an Oni, leaving only small and incoherent lapses of memory.

But this Koyuki... He always remembers the name, and along with the name a sweet voice...

'I love you Hakuji, and I always will no matter what.'

Akaza then punches the cave wall; Leaving cracks as soon as he withdraws his hand intact. Suddenly anger, sadness and a huge desire to cry accompanied by a huge emptiness in his chest fills him.

'WHO IS SHE?! WHY DOES THIS WOMAN MESS WITH ME SO MUCH!?

But then again he has a sudden memory lapse, this time of a woman, whose face was too blurred to make out.

But then this young woman's gentle and sweet smile made Akaza's heart soften a little; Of course, that emptiness in his chest, which it seemed nothing could fill, hadn't disappeared like his apparently meaningless anger.

But still, who was Koyuki? Was she someone he cared about in his human life?

Why was he letting himself be affected by such emotions of a lifetime that he, apparently, seems to have suffered so much? Now he was a powerful Demon! One of the elite Oni, the Uppermoons; and still something felt wrong...

As if this were not his place; and for Akaza this was madness! Ever since he became a demon, he's always had this huge desire to get even stronger! Although...

Why? Why does he want so badly to be so powerful? He wanted to convince himself that it was to outrun the others demons and stay on top. But that lie he told himself didn't seem to convince him anymore.

And that emptiness seemed to convince even more that there was something... A different reason... And perhaps more coherent and plausible.

But why now did this woman appear again to torment him after so long?!
The last time something like this happened was 1 week after he became a demon.

But why, now that he's become a powerful demon, has she decided to reappear in his mind? Why does she cause such a mental and emotional breakdown in him even though he doesn't remind her?

Again now, and just like before, all His questions will be left to him alone, his mind and heart seemingly empty of something...

Deep down Akaza wanted, wanted to remember...Maybe he wanted to become human again... Maybe that way he could understand all of this.

And without realizing it, Akaza finds himself crying for the emptiness that he didn't even know why...

The gods can be cruel...

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Thank you for reading the first chapter of this story! As you read this story  will have angst; If you don't like it, please leave! Thanks for your attention.

┏ this story is entirely mine! Only the characters don't belong to me, so please don't copy my story or make translations or versions of it without my permission, thank you in advance.

Started: January 18, 2023
Finished: ??????? ??, ????