The TV quietly played in the background , laughter of the fake audience ringing throughout the room. The only noise my mind focused on was the beating of Natasha's heart whilst i lay with her on the sofa.
Her tender fingers raked through my hair , uncaring of the occasional knots.
"do you regret it ?" I blurted out.
"What?" Nat replies , confused.
"Kissing me?Do you regret it?" I say , more meek than before.
A small smile appeared on her face , her eyes softening and her gaze focusing on me.She leant her head down and placed a gentle kiss on the top of my head.
"Not at all." She spoke softly "Why , do you?"
I shook my head against her chest "no" i say quietly "i'm just scared that you did it in the heat of the moment"
"of course not.I've been trying not to kiss you for so long now" She replies.
I take in a breath and exhale shakily.
"So what does this mean exactly ? What does this make us?" I ask nervously.
"Kal" She pauses "If I'm being honest , i don't know. We'll just have to see what happens"
"what about the University?" I look up at Natasha and I'm sure she can see the fear in my eyes.
"We'll be careful , I promise , no one will find out" Natasha says , trying to ease my discomfort.
Theres so much i want to say , so much flooding my mind all at once. Being physically unable to articulate all of my different thoughts i , instead , breath out a simple "okay."
"Hey" She said softly , grasping my attention , my gaze flickering to face Natasha.
"Stop overthinking , it was just a kiss" She encouraged with a gentle smile.
3RD PERSON POV
Kali toyed with the hem of her shirt , nerves bubbling in the back of her head as she pushed herself to speak.
"i know , you said you don't know" She paused and Nat's attention turned to her "but really , what does this make us?"
When Kali looked up at Natasha with her big brown eyes , Natasha felt her stomach twist in such an unusual way which she didn't yet understand.
"Kal , honey , if i'm being one hundred percent honest , i don't think i can handle a relationship right now" Natasha said.
For a moment , Kali felt her heart drop in disappointment but before she had even registered it , the feeling was gone.
"me neither" She responded.
"so how 'bout just a casual thing , hm?" Nat said with a grin.
Kali agreed and Natasha then squeezed her tightly , placing feather light kisses upon her forehead.
And though both girls had agreed on where their relationship stood , they also both doubted their decision, the thought was there in the back of their minds - 'do i want more than that?'
A/N
short chapter i know i know i'm sorry but that just felt like a good ending to this part :))
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CAROUSEL - {Natasha Romanoff x OC reader}
Fanfiction~and its all fun and games ~until somebody falls in love , ~but you already bought a ticket and theres no turning back now. - - - - Kali , a university student trying to move on from her messy past and learning to harness her emotions. Natasha...
