𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙩𝙡𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 || 𝗝.𝗢

"𝘁𝗲𝗲𝘁𝗵"

         Jahseh Dwayne Ricardo onfroy 

July 7th 2017

I can't breathe I literally can't breathe without her and she still won't talk to me she let me fuck once before we broke up and it was the best sex we ever had it was better than our first time that's how I knew it was really over

She'll have her mother send me texts about
The baby's appointments and when I go she won't even look at me it's killing me that im
Not there for her right now

I just sat in the studio making sing after song for her popping xan after xan I was geekin right now and all I wanted was to hold my baby and cuddle with her I just sat in the chair singing lyrics

I've dug two graves for us, my dear
Can't pretend that I was perfect, leavin' you in fear
Oh man, what a world, the things I hear
If I could act on my revenge, then, oh, would I?
Some kill, some steal, some break your heart
And you thought that I would let it go and let you walk
Well, broken hearts break bones, so break up fast
And I don't wanna let it go, so in my grave I'll rot
I've dug two graves for us, my dear
Can't pretend that I was perfect, leavin' you in fear
Oh man, what a world, the things I hear

I got up from my chair and grabbed a bottle of tequila off the table I popped the top off and took a swig while falling everywhere I sat in my chair and drink some more

"Why doesn't she love me enough to come back" I said crying lowly 

I pulled out my phone seeing it was 2:33 and I tapped her contact again for the 134th time in 2 hours

But this time she answered

                          **Call started**

Deja: what's up X
Jah: I miss you so much ma
Deja: I miss you too my love and are you drunk right now?
Jah: a little of both I took 4 Xanax and drank half a bottle of tequila
Deja: jah what the fuck are you dumb your going to overdose you dumb fuck
Jah: it doesn't even matter you don't love anymore you wanna go off and talk to other niggas
Deja: jah I haven't left my house since I first got it what are you talking about
Jah: ma I need you to come over real bad please just so I can get some sleep I'm so fucking tired
Deja: jah please stop crying my love I would but im 31 minutes away and I'm really tired
Jah: please ma I'll make you food and maybe you could stay for a few days so we can talk about xiorra
Deja: whatever jah im coming give me an hour at the most after this it's over I can't help anymore you need to learn your lesson
Jah: I learned it ma I promise I did and thank you I love you so much ma
Deja: k jah
Jah: say it back ma
Deja: why are you crying now jah
Jah: you won't say it back I need to hear you say it
Deja: I love you too jah

                         **Call ended**

I just laid on the couch and looked at the ceiling smiling until I fell asleep

Deja Marie Blanco

I got in my car I brought snacks since I may be in the car a while depending on how traffic is the tourist really have the freeways packed

⏭Skip the car ride cuz I'm lazy asl 😭.⏭

I got to the house and walked up the drive way and I opened the door as I was walking in I noticed the house looked terrible it was glass everywhere there were holes in the walls and it kinda reminded me of the first time something like this happened except it was ski that called me I walked into the living room to see him sleeping and he looked so cute I shook him and he didn't move but his lips looked so adorable I decided to kiss him

Why I would do that I have no idea

He jumped up with his eyes closed still

"DEJA" he yelled feeling around the room

"How'd you know it was me it could've been genevas ghost" I said then laughed

He opened his eyes and straight faced me

"You're lips are always plump and soft so I know by the texture"

He walked up to me and hugged me while feeling on my ass and I pushed him off me

"Move negro and come on let's go to sleep it's late and traffic was heavy as fuck"

I pulled him the stairs and saw holes all through our room walls and the doors
I looked towards him he looked down I pushed him on the bed and laid next to him

"Why are you all the way over there"

This Nigga think he slick 🙄

"I can't get closer jah now go to bed"

"Lay on me or I'll scream take a step back"

This Nigga cannot be serious I just laid back and closed my eyes

"FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP YOU HEY PUSSY NIGGA HE DONE FUCKED UP LAME NIGGA BETTA KNOW HIS LUCK UP" he yelled while jumping on the bed

I kicked him in the back of the leg and he fell back

"Lay yo ass the fuck down Jesus Christ" he just started at me

"Have I ever told you that your sexy as fuck when your mad"

"Yes jah multiple times now please lay down literally anywhere"

"Anywhere?"

"Yes Nigga now lay down"

He spreaded my legs and laid between them on his stomach with his head on my chest

"Goodnight watermelon head"

"Goodnight dorito"

"Actually I can't sleep can you sing to me"

"Whatever jah what song"

"Teeth"

"Now you got me fucked up why would I sing a song that you made for your ex to you?"

"I didn't make that shit for none of my exs I made it for you when we broke up in high school"

"Jah hon I'm your ex"

"No you not you my wife we just on hold right now"

"Whatever man"

I sung the song for him until I felt myself drifting into sleep I looked at him and he was drooling on my shirt which is very disgusting but whatever im just going to shower when I wake up

"I wish you never hurt me jah"' I said lowly

"Me too dej"