My speeches

I'm tired of pretending

I am tired,

tired of being sad,

tired of pretending,

tired of being angry

tired of feeling crazy

tired of feeling stuck

tired of needing help

tired of remembering

tired of missing things

tired of feeling worthless

tired of not being able to let go

tired of wishing i could start all over

tired of dreaming of a life i will never have

Taciturn- uncommunicative in speech. silent, reserved

"Shes a little shy and a little scared to get close to anyone because, oh well I don't know, everyone that said They'd always be here for her..... Left"

"Depression isn't being lazy,Self harm isn't attention seeking, you know what it is, its like having a loaded gun on you at all times. the only problem is that you're not in control of the trigger". Eating disorders aren't trends, Being gay isn't wrong , Suicide isn't cowardly"

"You want to know what i think about myself?

Failure

Failure

Failure"

Binged

Starved

Cut

Burned

Cried yourself to sleep

Hated every inch of your body

Wanted to die"

Oh I don't know, mabey it's because of the father I once loved dearly calling me a waste of space or, oh here's a good one, worthless piece of shit. Or the woman I called mommy yelling at me.

I am not bitter towards them. No, I  thank them for all the years of love and gentle encouragement. Because all those hurtful word, all the snide comments, all the disappointed glares, all the phone conversations with people who need to get their noses out of other people's business, they olny made me stronger. No honestly the only thing it truly did was turn me into a bitch. A Cold hearted demon, who will, probably never truely trust anyone again because it's not worth it.

You shout it out,

But I can't hear a word you say

I'm talking loud not saying Much

I'm criticized but all your bullets ricochet

Shot me down and I get up

I'm bullet proof nothing to lose fire away fire away

Richochet you can take your aim fire away fire away

You can shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium

Stone hard machine gun firing at those who run stone hard those bullet proof plans

I'm bullet proof nothing to lose fire away fire away

Richochet you can take your aim fire away fire away

You can shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium

,

My story, tho sad is one of the stories of a won battle against depression and suicide. For a wile last year, I'd stopped trying. I literally did not care whether I lived or died. Mutilated part of my thigs and belly,  Swallowing a half gallon of bleach, cut so deep that Id passed out. I myself am amazed that I'm still here today

To help those who might be going through this very crap, because I've already come to terms with it. I'm here to tell them to get help, I'm sure Evan a school counselor would be willing to listen,

I would be wiling to listen if no one else will, beacause I know firsthand what it's like to feel rejected, and worthless, No Infact I challenge you to talk to your parents about what you're going through, the are your parents, the love YOU. Don't get to the point I'm at . The point were I trust no one but myself, the point were I feel no sense of loyalty towards my parents and I avoid them at all costs.

Don't turn out like me 

let someone help, it will be a lot easier for you.

I'm bullet proof nothing to lose fire away fire away

You can shoot me down but I won't fall I am titanium

I am titanium