In Your Own Way || Jungkook ff

1 : Lips

Here you are running as fast as you can not because you are being chased but hurt, you were hurt.

 You just got bullied in your college, you were  betrayed and physically, verbally and mentally abused, in all way they could. 

You didn't have good parents either..so you thought of running to the place you always went when you are sad.

 It was a park near an abandoned building where you really loved to be, it made you feel fresh.

 People say that you shouldn't be going there because its near an abandoned place and there has been a lot of murder cases there but nothing really happened to you yet.

 It's not as if you want something to happen, but you really feel good vibes here like you're safe, ofc you are because no one really visits here. After what happened with you since years you couldn't feel like having anyone around.

So now you can spend time alone on the swing and listen to songs and do whatever you want.

Whenever you spent time here, a small bunny would visit you. You talk to it as if it was your diary and told it how your day went. 

You sometimes wonder how a street bunny can be so soft and fluffy like someone takes care of and washes it. 

It always smelt good and was healthy but you thought there must be some kid who secretly crept into this place and did it because you did see a kid playing with it once.

After spending some time with the bunny and giving some 'bunny food' to it you bid it a goodbye and it ran back into the forest nearby.

 You sighed and walked back to your house ready for facing the scoldings you are going to get for reaching home late.

 But you couldn't help you had to make your mood better with the bunny and go back with good smile or else you would be questioned of who you are to be angry infront of them as if it needed reputation. 

You had to speak well to them as a respectful daughter and listen to every word they say and reply politely, they never thought of your opinions and wishes.

You open the door by the spare key and politely shouted "Mom??I am home~~" you had to you didn't want your day to be worse.

"YN!!! WHAT MADE YOU SO LATE???"

"Mom I am just 10 mins late."

"YOU ARE GONNA SPEAK BACK TO ME NOW???!? HOW DARE YOU?? " you widened your eyes. This is bad.

"No no mom, I am so sorry."

"Fine. WHY ARE YOU LATE HAVEN'T I TOLD YOU TO COME ON TIME?"

"Mom listen. I met my old school friend on my way. We had some coffee together so it wouldn't be rude to go away after meeting in years. I'm sorry for being late." You lied.

"Girl or boy?" She asked eyeing you all the time.

"Of course its a girl mom, you never allowed me to make male friends?" You spoke.

"Okay, I'll let it slide this time. But why didn't you call me that you will be late?"

"U-uh. I was just excited to talk to her. I forgot, I'm sorry."

"Alright" she said.

You bowed and walked away.

Closing the door of your room. You recalled what happened in college and thinking your parents don't care about you in face of their ego made your heart ache, your mom didn't even notice the marks on your face and body. 

You felt no one loved you. You had you day off at the job today because of some renovation in the cafe, you felt a bit lucky and relived because you were all tired of the beating and scoldings. 

You washed up smelling good, put some ointments on the bruises and opened your phone and checked out your social media and blocked all your friends and family members, made your account private, changed you username, ids and everything. 

Your online friends knew that this was your new identity since they had been really nice to you, so you considered them as your only friends. 

You walked down the stairs as you smelt some mouthwatering smell and peeked into the kitchen in a weird and funny way, slowly not wanting your mom to notice since you didn't like talking to her and she would find it rude just walking away. 

You were always like this ever since you started understanding things better. You tried to ignore people as much as you could in person but you missed your old bubbly self when you had your real father but you considered that fate didn't want you to be happy forever and wished to teach you some life lessons.

Anyways luck wasn't with you this time your mom caught you peeking red-handed which you thought you could handle by praising her food skills.

"Yn? What are you trying to do? Behave yourself..Act like a girl." she said firmly.

"Sorry, I was just trying to be funny plus the food smells so good I couldn't help. You cook so good mom." you kissed her cheek acting sweet before bowing unwillingly and rolling your eyes secretly at her. You walk away like a 'girl' looking pissed off. Its not like you had a bitchy attitude but you really wanted to be yourself without being pointed out by your parents. 

You went in the hall watching the new drama recently put out, in which a girl was so bullied that she changed her school and started a new life and was satisfied enough being happy. She was your role model, how bad you wished you could run away and start a new life but deep down your cared for you mother knowing you are her only daughter. 

You decided to change your college and appear into another because you got better marks (you were good at studies) so a better college to get will be easier and you wanted to escape those bullshit they made you go through.

Soon before your kdrama could finish you saw the the same pink colour letter slip in through the door. You panicked thinking if the admirer must have sent it earlier when you might not be at home and your mom saw it, but you shrug off the thought and quickly ran to the window near the door pushing aside the curtains to see a glimpse of the person who keep sending these lovely letters to you.

You lowkey love him too but you couldn't get a chance to catch him and express your feelings. As you peeked out you saw the person but he wore everything black so it was hard to look at his face. Your eyes could only notice his pierced lips with the lip ring but before you could admire other features of his face he quickly noticed you and ran away with a great speed that impressed you.

 You opened to door and tried to shout "Hey wait! I want to see you!!!" but he had already disappeared into the neighborhood way. Your heart thumped against your chest as the scene of his lips ran across your mind but you quickly shrug it off before your mom noticed you standing at the door step. 

You quickly get in and close the door picking up the pink envelope with a red rose stuck on it. 

"Yn? What are you doing there?" You quickly hid the letter inside the pocket of your hoodie as you turned around.

"Oh mother? Nothing mom I was just shooing a bug outside." You spoke as your mom noticed the open window near the door step. "It came in through the window so I threw it from there." You quickly spoke pointing at the window, walking towards it and closing it before she doubted your lies. 

"Okay. Good you are not scared from them anymore."

You slightly widened your eyes forgetting the thought that you hated bugs and insects but all you could say was a yes.

"Anyways dinner is ready. I wonder your father hasn't come home yet must be working really hard at his office. I miss him" You mentally cringed at her a bit but kept an innocent face.

But suddenly you recalled the reason why you were mostly sad and angry. You had been so stressed out by your school that you nearly forgot..

Your father Raped you last night.