[Drama is back to mess things up.]
Lauren's POV
"Camz, we need to talk." I said when we finished our cappuccinos.
"Mm." She murmured as she tilted her head up and sucked the last drops of coffee from the straw. "What is it?"
"Don't be mad at me, okay? We are just talking."
She looked at me from the corner of her eyes and put the straw back inside the empty Starbucks cup on the table. She uncomfortably shifted her weight on her seat and ran a hand through her hair.
"It's bad. I can feel it in my belly."
I bit my bottom lip to prevent a giggle. She can be adorable even when she's scared. She is just literally the perfect girl for me, and that's why we have to have this talk.
"You're from Brazil." I said.
"Um, yeah. So?"
"And I'm from America."
"I noticed." She said with a lazy smile that quickly disappeared when she saw I wasn't laughing. "Uhm, yes. I know."
"We are dating." Although it felt really nice to say that, I knew it would eventually become a burden. It would smash my heart into pieces and everything left would be memories when Camila go home. It wouldn't be a problem if it wasn't 89474348 miles away from mine.
"I know. What's your point, Lo?" She asked, furrowing her eyebrows. I really wished she would understand what I was saying without me having to explain. If I had to put it in words I would probably break down right here at Starbucks. I felt my eyes getting watery when the weight of everything I was holding in for these weeks came down on me. Camila cried way easier than I did, and if she sees me crying she would probably cry too and I didn't want that. I looked up to the ceiling, hoping the tears would magically go back to inside my body. I ran my forefingers down my eyes, drying the tears that were there. I breathed to calm myself down and looked back at Camila's chocolate eyes. Her eyebrows slowly came back to its place. Now she didn't have a confused look on her face, she had a consciousness mixed with sadness look. She closed her eyes and bit her bottom lip. It was the same thing she did when she didn't want to laugh, but this time she just didn't want to cry. I guess she understood what my point was.
I reached for her hand over the table. She laced our fingers together but kept her eyes closed. I knew she was crying inside like I was. Great idea, Lauren. Why don't you just bring your girlfriend to Starbucks to say that you'll be soon over and will live far away and will have boyfriends and other friends and you'll both say to other people that what you had here would be just a phase even though you still own each other's hearts?
"Camz." I said but my voice cracked.
"What... When we... You..." She tried to formulate something to say but she couldn't and it killed me to see Camila that vulnerable. I got up and grabbed her hand, pulling her to the park in the back of the coffee shop.
Camila's POV
Lauren dragged me to an empty kid's park in the back of the Starbucks and made us both sit down on the grass. She pulled me into the tightest hug I've had in my life. I wrapped my arms on her waist and buried my face on her neck. Even though we had all these fucked up thoughts inside our heads, it felt nice to have Lauren's body heat touching me. Her neck got wet with my tears and I raised my head because I don't think she would like having tear drops streaming down on her shoulders.
"It's okay." She said nodding and putting a hand in the back of my head. She pulled my face back to her neck and laid us both on the grass. I put an arm around her waist and nuzzled on her neck as if it was my safe place. I slowly calmed down and stopped crying as Lauren made circles with her fingers on my back.
"We... we can make it work. Right?" I said but I didn't really believe so and I'm pretty sure neither did Lauren. We didn't believe in the distance relationships.
"Sure, baby. Sure we can." Lauren lied to me and to herself. Illusion felt nice right now but I knew we would soon have to deal with reality. I lifted my head from her neck and she turned herself to face me.
"This is really messy." I whispered.
"Camz, we are really messy." She said with a soft chuckle. She had a kind smile on her face but her eyes were glossy and I knew she was at one step from crying. No one wants to see their favorite person in the world crying. I unwrapped my arms from her waist and cupped her face with my hands. The grass was tingling on the right side of my face but I didn't care.I bet the ocean she calls 'eyes' would look beautiful with tears pouring out of it but beauty isn't everything is it?
I brought myself even closer to her and kissed her lips in the most soft and tender way I could. It lacked force and carnal passion but I wanted it to be kind and calming. Lauren made sure to kiss me back delicately. She knew I was treating her like she was made of glass so she did the same to me. It was one of the best kisses we've ever done. It just showed to ourselves that we could still love and have fun even if it would be over soon. We just had to make this time worth it.
Little did we now that "soon" would be even sooner than we thought.
A/N: I already know how this is going to end and I think you guys are going to like it yayy. Thanks for reading <3 - Poop
