Forever Royal

Bitter Dreaming

"Hello" I call out, " is anybody there?" I can't see anything because the whole place is pitch black, I have no idea where I am, I decide to try to feel around so I put my arms out in front of me and take a few tentative steps forward, till I feel a door I look for the handle and slowly open the door, suddenly I'm blinded by a bright white light, I quickly put my arms in front of my eyes but the light dims so I place them down and take a sharp intake of breath because I am in my old kitchen back in England, in front of me is my dad sitting down with a younger me on his lap and he's tying my shoe laces. I watch as a very familiar scene plays out in front of me.
" daddy mrs Hivaldi is the best teacher ever, the other day she gave me a teddy bear because I was a good girl in class" says a 9 year old me .
" Wow that's amazing Eadenn, come on now though it's time to go to school" with that he pulls me over his shoulder and bounds out the door starting to tickle me, I begin laughing hysterically begging him to stop. I follow them out the door with tears streaming down my face because I remember this day so vividly. My dad carefully places me in the passenger seat of the car then gets in behind the wheel. whilst he's doing this I'm screaming " stop don't get in please, stop please!" I run to the car and pound on the windows, trying anything to get them to get out of the car but it doesn't work they can't see of hear me. I cry harder at my powerlessness, closing my eyes tight to block out this moment, to distance myself from this day. When I open them again I am in the backseat of the car, I watch silently as my younger self begs my dad to go buy her sweets before we get to school. He smiles down at me saying " sweets are not..." He never gets to finish his sentence because in that moment a truck coming from the opposite direction swerves in front of our car and in an attempt to try not to hit it my dad swivels the car which sends us to hit another car and then everything goes black. I open my eyes and I'm on the beach. It's night time and when look ahead I see someone walking towards me soon I realise it's my dad.
"Daddy!" I scream and run up to him then give him a massive hug, he twirls me around whilst saying
" my sweet Eadenn, I've missed you" he then places me down and I stare at him in shock that Iam here, on the beach and he's here with me " Daddy I've missed you so much, there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you" I start to cry, the tears flowing slowly down my face.
" Don't cry my sweet Eadenn, I'm here now, tell me how gave you been?"
"I've been good, I left England and moved to Irassia to study law, how have you been daddy?"
"I've been fine, I like to watch over you sometimes to see how you are"
" why can't you come home daddy, you've been gone for so long now, please come home"
" I can't because this place is no longer my home anymore, tell me E do you have your camera with you?"
"Yes why?"
"Bring it out"
I take out my camera from the little purse I always carry around with me, I'm holding it when he points at the sky I look up and see a shooting star, I quickly take pictures of it. When I eventually put my camera I realise I'm no longer on the beach, rather I'm in my parents old room, my mum has just walked in through the bathroom and she starts saying something to my dad soon their conversation escalates to an argument, I can't hear anything they're saying no matter how closely I try to listen.
I never knew my parents argued, I always thought there relationship was perfect, I watch my mins mouth closely and am able to decipher her words " I want a divorce" my mouth drops because I never knew that my parents relationship had gotten this bad, they always played the role of the perfect parents around me but little did I know this is what they were really like behind closed doors. I turn around having seen enough of my parents arguing. I look on the floor in front of me and see my dad's favourite suitcase and it's half open with loads of clothes inside it. I look back at him shocked because my dad was planning on leaving. The door suddenly opens and my 9 year old self walks in carrying the teddy bear my teacher gave me, I realise I know when this is, my younger me glances quickly at the suitcase, i watch myself closely and watch as realisation eventually dawns on me, I knew then that my dad was going to leave but I look away quickly because I don't want to believe it so I ignored the suitcase, and buried the seeds of doubt that had begun to grow in my mind hoping if I did what I thought wouldn't be true. I then climb on to my parents bed and they tuck me in between them, my dad then tells me a bed time story, one I am all to familiar with. I turn around this time making sure to close my eyes, struggling to contain the tears in my eyes. I knew something tonight that I managed to deceive myself into forgetting. I close my eyes and walk away from the room, from myself because I know what's going to happen next, I know the tragedy that awaits me the next day, I continue to walk blindly with my hands out distancing myself from the scene, from that night. The night before my dad dies....

Hi guys this is Anita again *authors note* this chapter so far has taken me the longest time to finish because I lost it so many times and so constantly had to rewrite it because I was adamant that I had to finish it. This chapter is very different from the others because it's E dreaming and in the dream she revisits certain moments from her pasts where she discover truths that have been buried long ago, I wanted to add this chapter in to shed some light on E's past and certain key moments that have really affected her life. I hope you like it. Please show your support by voting for the book, commenting on it if you wish to and adding it to your book library. Thanxxx