- dear amajiki, entry 11,
the thrill that you get from talking to people depends on each person individually; for some people, they might get the best feeling ever, for others, not so much. there is an exceeding amount that one can take, i, in this case, cannot take it one bit. i am aware of this, and always have been. i think i've mentioned this in other entries, i'm not too sure if i ripped them out, though.
i hate it. i hate it a lot. i cant express how much i hate it without using the word 'hate'. i want to use other words but i cant. that is how much i hate it.
i have never experienced this thrill on talking to people, and i could easily admit that i'm not good at them. it's obvious - painfully obvious to everyone, though, i do wish it wasn't. i wish that that one single trait of mine wasn't the only perceptible thing about me. they all look at me weird, or that might just be me, nevertheless, i absolutely despise the pity that comes with it. the stutters or my slurred words have never not been a joke to others, i try to control it but i cant. it's not that it's difficult, it's just that i cant.
it's silly, i think.
no, it's stupid.
me saying that i cant is an excuse, isn't it? silly of me to think that it was a genuine excuse. tamaki amajiki, always running away from his problems, what's with him? i hate him. i hate him so, so much. i really, fucking despise him.
from tamaki, until entry 12.
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