Always You

Chapter 1

He lays flat on his back, head against the rough fabric of the sofa.

It makes him lift his neck to reach the mouth that is hovering above him. NuNew doesn't mind the uncomfortable position, he would do just about anything to feel the softness of those lips as long as possible.

Zee nudges his cheek with his nose to get access to pecking his neck with tiny kisses. NuNew can hear Zee breathe into his ear. It's almost a whine and NuNew feels how the sound escaping Zee creates an intense tingle that travels straight to his pelvis and below.

This is not the time nor the place for an erection. They're co-workers and they are supposed to be kissing, not to indulge in pleasure, but to practice for their roles in the upcoming BL series Cutie Pie. NuNew is aware of this and squeezes his eyes shut in an impossible mission to control himself.

It almost works. Until Zee gently holds his cheek with his hand and once again leans down to kiss him. This time he's sucking his tongue into his mouth with such heat that NuNew's head goes completely blank and his body starts to move on its own.

He runs his hand under Zee's t-shirt and pulls him even closer. His erection is impossible to hide by now, Zee must feel it against his leg. When NuNew's hips make an involuntary but extremely satisfying grind, he can feel it, the bulge in Zee's pants.

The contentment makes NuNew sigh into Zee's mouth, holding him down with arms around his chest. He smells so good, like perfume and sweat and he's soft but muscular in a way that makes NuNew feel overwhelmed.

"Practicing, are we boys?" P'Aof says in closer proximity than should be possible without them noticing he entered the room.

NuNew can see the smile in P'Aof's face as he looks at them and he ducks down, hiding his blushing cheeks in Zee's shirt.

NuNew always gets shy like this, not knowing how to handle his feelings for Zee. Somehow he keeps ending up resorting to his chest and his eyes and his warmth for comfort, even more blushing.

"Practicing," Zee says. Zee smiles at P'Aof, but he doesn't pull back from NuNew, his hand lingering on the soft part of his stomach.

NuNew looks up as P'Aof walks out of the room and his eyes fall into Zee's immediately. There's warmth in those eyes and something close to a laugh, but no shying back.

"Wanna get something to eat?" Zee asks, raising his hand to brush a stray lock of hair from his forehead.

"Sure".

"There's no rush," Zee says quietly.

NuNew knows that Zee is referring to the circumstances between his legs that is slowly getting itself sorted out. Zee always does this, knowing NuNew's needs as though he's reading his mind. And taking the utmost consideration of his feelings, never making him feel awkward.

They've had some time to get to know each other. It's late September and they've known each other for a year by now.

Zee has been NuNew's idol from the start. Handsome Zee, nine years older and much more experienced than NuNew both in the field of work and in the art of living, constantly supporting him.

But it's more than that. When NuNew had his 20th birthday Zee surprised him with being there, buying him gifts. When NuNew is stuck in his acting, Zee is ready to help any hour of the day. When NuNew gets a stain on his white shirt Zee is there to help him wash it off.

NuNew is in love with Zee.

"I love Hia" NuNew says, repeatedly, and he means it. And Zee smiles at him like he loves him too, but never says it back.

NuNew can't be sure if Zee feels the same way for him. Zee is kind and attentive, but it might be character bleed from their roles. It might be that Zee feels good to be loved but that his heart is not in it.

NuNew knows that they are going to have to talk about what is happening between them.

If he lets this continue and Zee walks away, NuNew will be crushed.

Maybe it's already too late for that.