Always You

Chapter 3

Zee is standing so close that NuNew can hear him breathing. NuNew, nervous enough to feel like he's burning up, finds comfort in the irregularity of the sound. They're both scared.

The only direction this could take was straight to Zee's home. Zee's hand was in NuNew's lap the entire car ride, Zee's thumb caressing NuNew's thigh.

They made their way home in silence, stepping over the threshold without touching. NuNew thinks that he would have caught on fire if he so much as grazed Zee's skin with his hand.

At this point NuNew is standing in Zee's living room, wanting. NuNew wants Zee so much that he overcomes his shyness for a split second, and it's enough to end up in Zee's arms. Zee pretty much catches him when he flings forward. Zee's hands are holding NuNew's cheeks, Zee's brown eyes carefully watching his.

"Yeah?" Zee says softly, as if he's understanding NuNew's need to get close but needs confirmation to go forward.

"Yeah," NuNew says, the only answer available to him. It's okay, he wants this, please proceed.

NuNew realizes immediately when Zee's lips find his, he has never kissed Zee before. They've kissed many times, but it was Lian, and Zee's mouth is different. The way he moves his lips, mouth open, and the way he angles his body towards NuNew, pressing their chests together.

This is Zee being himself.

They've talked about how to kiss before of course, practiced with coaches to make it look good for the camera. Kissing and touching has been controlled which led to NuNew feeling all strung up. Having Zee to himself, the attraction is so all encompassing that the fears and the tightness in his chest that he normally feels evaporates. There are no cameras here, no staff that can walk in on them.

Getting caught up in the moment, NuNew is leaning his head to the other side to kiss him. This is something he never did when acting because it made the angles wrong for the camera. As his lips press against Zee's again he can hear Zee letting out a breath, a soft moan.

Zee grabs him by the waist, he's close and warm and NuNew shivers when he can feel the breath in his ear.

"Can I take you to bed?" Zee asks, pulling back enough to look into NuNew's eyes.

There's a soft smile there, with lips already red and puffy because of the kissing. NuNew is safe with Zee, he knows this. Zee cares for him and considering the looks of it he's enjoying this as much as NuNew does.

NuNew's heart is pounding wildly in his chest. This is a new experience for him, but when Zee asked him if he wanted to sleep with him and NuNew dropped the spoon on the table at the restaurant, he had already decided on his answer. It was a yes, a yes to learn how to make love because he needs to be able to do this not looking like a frozen twig during the shootings. Mostly it was a yes because he's desperately in love with Zee and wants to touch every part of him and to be touched by him.

NuNew thinks Zee doesn't need to know that second part, but it's still a yes.

As NuNew's head hits the soft pillow on Zee's bed and Zee crawls up between his legs, NuNew knows that this is where it starts. It's the beginning of what he's never done before.

It feels good that it's Zee that's hovering above him with warmth in his eyes. He can't believe he gets to do this, that this beautiful man wants to have him.

NuNew has only ever experienced one sided love, him unfortunately being the one alone with the feelings. Shy since he started school, it never has been easy to connect enough to find a boyfriend.

Then Zee waltzed into his life, this idol that he followed on screen. The actor who seemed kind and brilliant. NuNew never in a million years imagined that he would be asked to cast for Cutie Pie and actually be chosen for the lead part by Zee.