Lovers Must Love

Chapter 4

This is what I have been told from the time I was gone.

When I was gone Steve got really depressed and suicidal. It really scared me when I was told that. He was taking painkillers that he felt he needed but in reality he really didn't need. And he didn't stream for a while. That is until Valentine's Day rolled around. He streamed that day and I was watching the stream while on vacation, I had to go not even half way through the stream. It was quite sad that we both had to spend our Valentines Day alone. we obviously got through it. I kept hearing his voice in my head saying that I didn't belong in the world, but I knew that want true. I didn't listen to that voice. I know that it wasn't true because I heard it from him the night before I left. I would rather believe him in reality than his voice telling me the opposite. He doesn't know this whole thing about the voice but he does now. I am sorry for not telling you this. Everything for me starting going downhill after that. I actually started believing the voice and I ended up getting suicidal. That has changed now, some people don't believe that I am ok. I am honestly ok. People who don't believe that need to rethink that thought in their minds. But then wasn't a good time for me, I was quite depressed in Mexico. Once I got back I called Steve and that's how I know all of this.

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Thanks guys for giving me 70 something viewers! I just want you to know that I now have a nickname for yall. Yall are now my Monkeys!! :D Anyway thanks guys!