I've woken up on the same bed, same room, same castle, same kingdom for my whole life, only to live day after day exactly the same. Wake up, get ready for the day, read, eat, sleep then repeat. I'm sick of it. Today was different though,.. I went out to the garden and got to pick roses because we were going to have a ball today. Usually, the helpers pick the flowers but father said I needed sun, not many know about my sickness, father says "it's better to be seen than heard" because therefore I am a woman after all. Father is hosting this ball to find me a husband since I am now 18 and need a king by my side, sometimes I feel like he hates me. Making me get married to a man, even after I told him I didn't feel attraction towards men he said the words I hated the most "it is better to be seen than heard" so I keep my head up and my voice down. I have been planning to run away but father put guards at my door, the worst part is that mother isn't doing anything, but I understand that father is very hurtful towards her and me since she wasn't able to conceive a boy. On my mother's side, there is a sickness that appears in the womb and prevents a mother from having a son, father always said it made me less valuable since even if I were to carry a son it wouldn't be able to make it to full term before suddenly dying, it's tragic but it's true.
I was finally done picking flowers so I went inside to my seamstress that has gowns for me to try on, after about eight dresses I decided on this one
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I thanked the seamstress and carried my dress up to my room where I spent my remaining time deciding if I should go or not. father sent a helper to my room that told me I would be sold to the highest bidder tonight and that I had to pick inappropriate undergarments for when the winner takes me home, away from the palace. At this point I tried to run out of the palace because I'm not an object to be sold at an auction, I'm a person. When I reached for my doorknob and tried to open it, it was locked from the outside. I run to my bed and start crying "madam I am so deeply sorry but his highness had very strict orders for me to help you into your garments and into your dress" says the helper "I'm not getting sold, do you know what they do to women who get sold to men? They become local breeders!" I start crying more knowing that wherever ill go I won't be free, if a women buys me then I'll end up as a slave and if a man buys me ill become a breeder, obviously the best option is a women id rather be a slave then a breeder, but then I remembered what my father said. "Shela I thought father said id be given to my husband tonight and that's why we are having a ball" I said "well that wasn't exactly correct your Majesty" she said "Please shela tell me everything you know" She tells me what's actually going on and how ill be sold so my father can have more land so he can build my mother a place to medicate and test to see if she can give birth to boys, and how the one that buys me will end up my master or husband. I sat there with my mouth open in shock, my father is really selling me for a piece of land? What the fuck is this. "Fine I will get into the stupid dress but I will not be getting into anything that I do not like so no garments please, just the ones I'm wearing now is fine" I say I'm not an idiot but id do anything for my mother and if this is helping her then I will do it. And also my fathers best knight taught me how to fight since I was eight years old so I know my way around a knife. I get into the dress and shela does my hair into a long braid, with my long brown, curly hair it's almost the best thing it can do, so braid it is. I find myself all ready but shela told me that my favorite helper Agnes wanted me to have her necklace I almost started crying, agnes was like a second mother to me but I stopped myself, shela put it around my neck and it looked absolutely amazing. "Oh wait I almost forgot something," I say as I walk over to my desk and take three knives, I put one in my bra, one in my corset, and one hidden under my dress "Okay all ready" We walk to the door and shela knocks seven times then the door opens, we walk around the hall and down the stairs to the ballroom door to hear chattering, shela tells me good luck and leaves to pack my clothes in my room for when I'm sold.. Aha yay me.. I keep telling myself that this is the right thing and that I'm doing this for my mother but I dont want to. I don't want to be here and I don't want to be so- "ah I see that your late as well?" she laughs "I'm eliana, and you are?" her laugh is so adorable and her hair is black and curly, it goes so well with her completion she is so gorgeo- "hello? You okay darling?" she says snapping me back into reality. "Oh! My name is aleria" she looks at me with a shocked face and says "the princess aleria?" "mhm indeed I am my love" I say
