*ping* I look down at my phone watching every notification that comes by nervously as if it's going to tell me I will die today at a certain time, or maybe tomorrow, two weeks? or even in four years time? i'm not sure when I will die but i hope It's something worth dying for. I don't want to die for somebody because why would I want to die for somebody who doesn't even care about me? nobody cared about me as much as her and i'm petrified i'll never be able to get her to care about me the way she used to. I messed up, I know i did but she should have atleast of let me explain the situation that was forced upon me...now it's too late to explain, too late to stop time, too late to apologise for something she misunderstood, too late to get the pills she wanted, because i already know she's dying and why, why is this world so cruel to people? fair enough if people do something fucked up in the head but she MISUNDERSTOOD and never got to let me explain, i never explained the situation and i wish every single day that i stopped her then and explained the situation.
'Do you need any help?' a voice calls out. I turn around to see a woman in pale blue uniform looking up to me. 'Oh nah i just got to pick up some meds, but uh thanks' i smile but it drops just as fast as it came when I overhear a conversation between a customer and the employee.
'But i need those meds today!' she calls out panicking as if the world will end if she doesn't get what those medications. 'I'm sorry ma'am but we don't sell those types of drugs here, are you okay? do you need help?' the woman at the counter asks her. 'I'm fine just- do you know where i can buy them at least, please?' the woman signs.
'Is there anything that i could help with?' i ask the woman and the employee, i look down to see the woman looking down at a sheet of paper moving her head towards the right as if she's repeating the words on that list over and over. 'Well you see, this young lady here is asking for some really serious drugs that we just don't find acceptable-' the employee says defending herself for whatever reason. 'i could help with those' i lean against the counter completely turning my back towards the employee looking down at this girl.
'oh thanks but i'm not so sure i mean it's expensive-', 'Brilliant, it's sorted' i turn around and smile at the employee and look down at this girl who is eyeing me as if she's filled with curiosity. i like that. 'Are you sure young man? Where are you even going to get these sort of drugs from? I will call the police!' the employee starts pointing her fingers towards me and the girl standing in front of the desk eyeing me up and down with a confused look on her face.
'No need for that' i grab the girls hand and run towards the door and open it. I run pulling this girl with me who starts laughing historically which makes me chuckle a bit, it's nice hearing her laugh.
