I think myself a very trusting person. Most people I meet are nice and I've been extremely lucky when it comes to the whole bullying thing since I've basically experienced non of it. But as it is apparent during my relationship with someone I have loved for a long time I seem to have trouble trust them. Or something of fear of them leaving me for someone else. Despite me knowing with everything in my mind they wouldn't ever do that. And yet I pressure myself into constantly bothering them and constantly bothering them when their out hanging out with someone else. I get jealous yes and that's probably justified but it is also like I don't trust them while out with someone else. And it doesn't help that thoughts constantly barrage me with imagines of them with someone else, and that just hurts so much. This has gone to an extreme and I believe I have gone to far with this. I don't want to lose this person because of my own mental struggle. But I am completely willing to deal with this problem. And am actively working on this. I guess just posting some sort of writing to try and help this process. Hope there's more than horny 14 years old on this website and app lol.
