I know people who aren't good. This is mostly because of my past experiences in failing mental health. Once in the past I had to deal with a really bad scenario and because of events and some "advice" I completely broke mentally. And after these events I dated one of the worest people I have ever known. this person lied about everything to me and completely used me to get at someone else and attempt to ruin what life they had. And what's worse is the person was dating someone else and their excuse was they were on break. At the time I accepted it even though that is the single most stupidest answer to why they were cheating on someone. And so for about a week I dated this person. But after awhile I had realized what I had done and been apart of. I knew i had messed up big time and I am so sorry so to the person that I had been s part of to hurt them. from these events and the "advice" I think I lost my capability to trust as I had once. And I think it's been recently affecting me the worest. Which has caused me slowly causing a rift between the one I love and me. So I'm trying to do something now it's not too late. I'm trying to do something I don't know what just something before I lose them. I can't lose them. No matter what.
