Fire

Mental

Harry walked to the car and stepped in. He took off his fancy shirt and put on a blank black shirt. He drove with an angry look on his face. "You were boring." I said. "Really?! I just am trying to be a good guy and you're over screwing me over!" He yelled. "You don't get it do you." I said smoking my cigarette. "I obviously don't. I just want you to be my girl. I don't even need to meet you to know how amazing of a person you are. But I'm wrong obviously." He said not taking his eyes off the road. "Oh Harold. I'm no ones girl." I said. "Niall and Lanie are going out for a drink." He said. "Niall. He's better than you." I said. "Oh yeah how?" Harry said. "He's not boring." I said.

"I'm the most boring apparently." He said. I nodded. "That's it though Harold. I need adventure. I need someone daring." I said. "Oh yeah?" Harry said. "Yeah." I said. Harry passed by my house. "Wait.. You passed my by house." I said worriedly. "I'm boring, yeah?" He said. "Where are we going Harold." I asked. "To show you." He said. "Show me what?" I asked. "Just how boring I am." He said with a smirk.

I grinned. We arrived at a club it was so loud and packed. I grinned. "Not as boring." I said. "Nope still pretty boring." Harry said. "Of course Harold." I said. "Of course Violet." He said. I laughed and he laughed with me. We got up to the door. "ID" said the security guard. "It's Harry." He said. "Oh shit Harry, man come on in." The security guard said with a smile. "I'll get us drinks, also if you're with me that means no fucking with other guys alright babe?" Harry yelled over the music. "Whatever Harold." I yelled back."

Harry walked away to get us drinks. I saw two girls smoking something, I want it. I walk to them. "Hey girls." I say smiling. "Hey." They say in unison. "What's that you have?" I say pointing at their hands. "You can have it!" One of them said and handed me it. "Yeah..." I said and turned around to walk back to where I was. I started dancing. I took a drag of the blunt in my hand. "Fun...." I said smiling at the ceiling.

I look at Harry walking towards me. His green eyes are such a dark color that they reflect the color perfectly. His hair lays perfectly on his face and his tattoos make him look strong and sexy. He's amazing. I'm already falling for him. But this is bad for me. I need to stop. "Here, I hope you like this." He said, he handed me a cup that had a pink liquid in it. "Do you know what it is?" He asked. I shrug and take a drink from my cup. I take his hands a guide them to my hips.

I touch his face and feel how smooth it is. "Harold." I say giggling. "Open wide!" I say and he does with a smile I put the blunt in his mouth. He closes it immediately and pulls it out. "Where did you get this from?" He asks me worried. "Why, you don't like it?" I said with sad eyes. "No, Violet. Never mind." He says. "Here have some." I say and smile. He puts it between his lips and takes a drag he breaths out and coughs. I laugh. "You did it!" I say happily. "That's disgusting!" He says and quickly pulls away. I put it between my lips. "Oh well now Harold, it's not that bad!" I say laughing.

"Never again." He says. "It's horrible for you and I'm trying my hardest not to mess up my lungs." He says. "Whatever!" I say laughing. "No really it's horrible for you!" He says. "Yeah okay." I say and take his hand and head outside. "Where are we going?" He asks. "To your car!" I say excitedly. "I surprisingly like you better when you're high." He says laughing. "Well you'll like this even better!" I say and open the drivers door. I sit him there and I walk all the way to my side. I sit in the passengers seat. "The stars look wonderful tonight. You look wonderful tonight." He said. "As do you." I say smiling at him. He smiles back. I look at him looking at the sky. I pull him in for a kiss. I move onto his seat and onto his lower torso.

I kiss him and start kissing his neck. "Violet." He says out of breath. "leave it I whisper in his ear. I begin kissing him again. He kisses me back. This is getting better by the second. "Violet. No." He says as I move lower his body. I look at him and get back into my seat. He puts his hand on my knee. "I really care about you I don't want this to be the only reason we are together, you understand. I just want us to really know each other, I really really care about you." He says looking at me. "Take me to my house Harold." I say looking ahead of me. "Yes, of course." He says and starts his car. I don't want to talk to him. Things were actually starting to progress and he fucking stops it?! We drove in silence. Once we arrived to my house I see my parents cars in the drive way.

I undo my seat belt. "I'm sorry if I disappointed you." He said. "Whatever." I say. "No really Violet. I'm honestly serious." He said. He's literally killing me with his kindness. I want to hug him and cry in his shoulder telling him I love him and I honestly am serious as well. But if I show him emotion he'll soon know how to manipulate me. I can tell he will. I'm dying to show him how much I care. But showing emotion scares me to death. "Whatever!" I demand. "Violet." He says with sad eyes. I look at him and get my purse on my shoulder. "Well since you don't care. I just I hope you have a nice night at least." He says. I stay silent. "I hope our hangout time, well it was a date, but whatever you'd like to categorize it was good and you had fun." He said. I stayed silent again. "I really hope you have a nice night and day tomorrow." He said once more. "Okay." I said and got out of the car. I slammed the door as hard as I could. I walked to my front door and opened it.

I walked in. "Violet!" My mother said happily. "This is early for you! You never get home until later." My mother says. "Is everything alright." She asks. "Yeah." I say. "You look tired." She says. "Well I am." I say. I turn around and head towards my room. "Who were you with." She asks me curiously. "Just with Kelli and Lanie." I said. Kelli was my best friend as well. They know why I'm like this. That's why my parents always think I'm with them. They can help me. "I'm going to sleep so please be quiet." I say walking away. "Yeah, I got it." My mother said. "I love you!" She screams at me. "I love me too."'I scream back.

I run up to my room. Close the door and crawl on my bed. "Why does this always happen to me?!" I yell at myself. "I always let someone in and then fucking ruin it later." I yell. "I should have never gotten close to him! I knew it would start again!" I yell. I crawl up into a ball and cry. My tears wet my clothing more and more as I think deeper into the topic. Truth is I want him. My heart desires him. But my health and mind won't let me have him.