In The Stars ✓

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Hello my dear soulmate~

Wait.. is that how you start a letter? I am sorry i haven't written one in a long time, probably 15 years ago when i met my petal.. okay this is not about me or my long dead husband. Sorry i shouldn't be talking about us right now.

So... Yes. Umm.. i am sorry that i haven't even called you as my soulmate from one last year, right? I am really guilty and i really want to apologise for that even though what i am going to do tomorrow is nothing that i could ever apologise for.

How have you been doing these days? Probably very bad right? I know i haven't asked much about that from the last few weeks either.. i am sorry for that too. I Should have asked you.

I know i am not the only one going through something right now, you are going through something even worse whether that be healing and moving from noona's death or taking care of yoonie or looking for a good apartment for the two of you or looking for a well paying job for you both. Yet you never forget about me and always check up on me.

What did i ever do to deserve you? Do i even deserve you at all? I am really sorry for being such a good for nothing coward.

You know.. tomorrow is me and jungkookie's 10th wedding anniversary, i want to celebrate it.. what's a better gift for me other than being there with him.

I know you first lost your cousin, and not even 2 months later.. you lost your wife.. i couldn't even comfort you like you did for me when koo went away.. and now me as well.. your best friend since childhood.

It's not like you weren't enough of a reason for me to be alive, you were but.. i just.. couldn't do it anymore. I really couldn't.

You have always been there for me, i am sorry for being such a bad friend that i wasn't there for you when you needed me.

Please take good care of yourself and hayoonie please, i know you already do but still.. give her more time like she deserves and give both of yourselves the bestest life and a good family as well.

I know you like yoongi hyung. And trust me loves you even more than you can ever imagine. I know you want the best for hayoonie and trust me on this, he really is the best for her. I have seen such a big smile on his face whenever he plays with her and takes such good care of her as if he was her own second parent.

I know you do feel like that it's too early to move on from your wife as well, who you have loved from high school. I know it isn't easy. I might surely sound like a hypocrite because of this but trust me, i know he will keep you happy and it's okay to move on when you know you found the right person for it. There's nothing to feel guilty about seriously, i know and you know that too that noona will only be happy seeing you and her daughter being happy.

And one thing jiminie, you might like to check up some gifts i have for you and hayoonie in the file.. and before you think it's any favour or any bad thing that might come in your mind.. just know that i wanted to do this and i wanted you to accept it. I just want you all to be happy please.

You are having problems i know, and it's not some charity or anything, okay? Before you think something like that. it's a duty, you have the duty to always be happy and also take care of my kookie's flowers as well.. or we both will hunt you down at night.

And it's also not like i have any family beside you, you and hayoonie are the only ones for me in this world right now.

So.. i don't have much to say to be honest. All i can say is.. i am sorry if I ever did something wrong to you, or said something bad to you.. i really apologise, i hope you forgive me.

I will also make sure to be back with my love and will be happy i promise. You also have to be happy with hayoonie and yoongi hyung, okayy?

P.s: i will be visiting jungkookie's grave for the first time tomorrow, so that's where you will probably find me.

I love you so much jiminie, and i hayoonie too.

~your soulmate
Taehyung