In The Stars ✓

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3rd person POV:

"Umm.. should we go to the park? It's too early to go to the arcade or seashore right now.. and i don't wanna go to our house right now. I don't really like it anymore. Should I just give it to jimin? He lives in a rented house with his daughter right now.

A very cute girl.. looks just like jimin. She's just 10 months old you know. Her mother couldn't make it during delivery, yet jimin and haeyoon are so strong. I could never be like him. I wish I could help them.. but if this helps somehow.. then why not. I am doing the right thing, right?" Taehyung ranted and asked his husband seriously.. while they walked towards the park.

"What about you? Where will you live?" Jungkook signed.. worry evident in his expressions.

Taehyung scoffed as a smile showed up on his face before he waved his hand.."don't worry about me. I-.. we can manage as long as we are together.. right?" He muttered in a low voice.

Jungkook who was looking at him with blank eyes.. nodded his head.

"Let's just enjoy this peace for some time. I don't have much to do today. Ahh the weather seems good." Taehyung exclaimed all of a sudden when warm sunlight started falling over him.

Jungkook took a seat on the bench in the park.. making taehyung stop as well and sit beside him.

"What are you thinking?" Jungkook signed to the elder who shrugged his shoulders.. before had been lost in thoughts since he sat.

"Just.. how i am tired of talking by myself from 1 year. I want to hear your voice.. but not yet. I want to touch you.. but.. i just miss you so much. I miss your voice, your touch, your smiles, your giggles, your favorite cookies, your random flower jeweleries you force me to wear sometimes, or your tantrums when i jokingly refuse to give you your daily kisses, your homemade food that is not instant noodles, your scoldings when i don't wake up early for work, your angry look when you like the food so much.

Late night walks with you, watching sunsets with you, your singing, you randomly dancing around the house whenever you are excited about something, you trying to show your muscles by picking me up, or you patting me to sleep and cuddling with you. Everything. I am tired of living like this, i never knew there will be a day when i won't be able to experience these things. You have been here by my side, yet it doesn't feel enough.  I am tired of lying to myself." Taehyung rambled in a quiet voice.. as he sniffled while wiping his eyes.. his feet dangling over the bench as he swinged them slowly like a child.. zoned out while he stared at the fresh green grass.

"Hyung.." taehyung heard a voice say.. his favorite voice to be specific.

Taehyung closed his eyes.. releasing a deep exhale before he placed a finger on his lips and shook his head.."don't say anything. This is not the right time." He whispered.

"When is the right time? Just let me speak." Jungkook whispered to him.. not listening to taehyung and continuing to speak.

"Just know that it isn't right now. What do you even want to say?" Taehyung asked as he looked up at his husband with teary eyes.

"Many things." Jungkook responded.. fed up.

"Keep them to yourself.. i know what you want to say. And i am not ready to hear them right now so.. don't.. just don't. Just be there.. that's enough." Taehyung told him.. putting a finger on his lips again to quiten the younger.

"You know it yourself that me just being here is not enough for you anymore. Look at yourself.. you are crumbling down.. you need me." Jungkook seethed at him through gritted teeth.

"I just need your existence. I am not crumbling down. I am alright. If i say i am then i am.. no one can tell me otherwise. Your existence is enough to keep me sane." Taehyung sneered through gritted teeth.

"You can't be doing this.. you are blocking me out right now hyung. S-stop this." Jungkook couldn't say anything anymore when taehyung glared at him.

"Keep quiet. I said just be with me.. it's enough. Can't you hear me at once?" Taehyung grumbled before he closed his eyes again.. taking deep breaths to calm himself down.

"I am sorry for talking to you like this petal. But please don't say anything. I am not ready right now, okay? Let's enjoy our remaining date, yeah. I am sorry." Taehyung apologised to his husband who nodded his head in response.

Taehyung stood up from the bench to leave from there with the younger walking beside him but before he could go.. a cute puppy caught his sight who came running towards him and started rubbing his head on his leg.

The man couldn't help but smile genuinely at it.. even though it was a small one before he crouched down and picked the puppy up.. taking a seat down on the grass with the puppy in his lap as the cutie licked his hands when snuggling into him.

"Oh baby.. so cute, aren't you? What are you doing here? What's your name little baby?" Taehyung baby talked to the puppy as he scratched under his neck making the puppy loll his tongue out as the doggo smiled.

"i am so sorry, he ran away from me and i was finding him from so long." A lady huffed with her hands on her knees, panting as she came there out of nowhere seeing the puppy playing with taehyung.

"Oh- it's okay. Here." Taehyung said as he returned the puppy back to the lady who bowed in his direction before leaving from there.

"L-lets go, my love." He blurted to the younger's direction but his smile wavered right away, before replaced by a bigger one than before. "Jungkookie? Where did you go?" The man asked, looking around himself to see his husband who was nowhere to be found right now.

"Darling? Where are you!" Taehyung yelled when he went ahead to look for him but still didn't find him.."i was just distracted for a moment-.. are you here petal?" He shouted in the park again, his heart was hammering in his chest as he felt tears forming in his eyes.

"It's n-not funny baby. Come out, wherever y-you are? Please." Taehyung requested as he stopped back on one spot where he had started looking for him.

"Kookie.. where are you? You know i need you, right? You can't just suddenly disappear like this. Come out.. please. We have to go on a date, you were just here.. i will let you talk i promise. Just don't go like this." Taehyung cried as he sat back down on the prior bench with his legs to his chest and tears streaming down his cheeks.

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