diary of a broken hearted girl

dear diary,

I saw him again today walking along the corridor,my heart skip a beat when I saw him smile only to realize that smile was not meant for me..

Questions keep flooding my mind,where did we go wrong when everybody said we were meant for eachother..

I still remember when I was still in his arms,it's as if I have found my home,the feeling of security that I could never find in anybody else's arms..

When all his smile belongs to me, when all he can see is me..

Where did we go wrong?!!Was it when the pull of stardom and being famous went over to his head? or was it never meant to be from the start?!!

How I wish I have the answers to the questions left unvoiced..How I wish he was mine again..

Never have I felt this way the pain of being broken,like a knife twisting in your heart everyday..

How I long for him to take me back in his arms again and tell me it was all a dream a nightmare that never existed that when I wake up i'll still be in his arms

*sigh*

I still love him but I know even without me his world will still go on turning,that everyday without me he would still be ok

now all I can do is cry this silent tears of mine and hope someday we'll be together in the place where stars never cease to shine

I love him but now it's only in my sleep =(