Forgive To Forget || 𝙝𝙮𝙪𝙣𝙡𝙞𝙭

𝐀𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐳𝐢𝐧𝐠

"Sorry to interrupt your reunion."
A voice said.
Looking up in shock, my body froze. I couldn't move, I felt paralyzed, and everything went still. I couldn't hear anything but muffled voices in the back of my head. The loud music was drowned out and I couldn't bring myself to snap back to reality.
....
'Is this real...?' 'Please tell me it's an illusion'
'I don't want to believe it.' 'Please take me back.'
Words and thoughts filled my head and everything went black.

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Seemingly waking up in a bed whom I remembered was han's, I got up immediately but was greeted by the door opening.
"Lix-yah." A familiar groggy voice called out.
It's just changbin.
My heart kind of felt heavy, why was I feeling so guilty? 'I didn't expect it was him.'
I had a feeling I wanted someone else to show up behind that door instead.
"Felix?" He questioned making me come back from my thoughts.
"Oh, changbin. What happened...?" I asked. I checked my surroundings as he started explaining to me what happened. "I passed out for that long??" "Yeah, it was really a shock. Um, I get this may not be what you want to hear but, he is downstairs.." ....
'Is he just okay with me meeting up with him?'
'So it wasn't a dream, it was all real.'

I pushed Changbin out of the way and rushed downstairs to see the guy I've been aching to see ever since.
"You're up." He said blantly. 'That's it???' 'That's all he has to say?' I was infuriated, why couldn't he say something more like 'Lixie I miss you baby' or something! "What the fuck are you doing here Hyunjin." I said deadpan. "Just to see you." He said with a straight face. "Is that all? Because if so, you can leave now." "Woah woah woah, why are you being so hostile lixie?" "Don't call me that you piece of shit." "Hmm, feisty as always." He replied with a smirk.

"Is that all? Did you come back to toy with my feelings because for once I'm not turning into a fool again and I want you out of my life. Didn't I remind you not to look for me? What's the matter with you!" I yelled at him.
"What makes you so sure that I was only here for you, stop making everything about you lixie." He snickered.

'only here for me?? What the hell is he talking about?' "What are you saying." "Jeongin baby come here."

What the fuck.

You have to be kidding me.

He's fucking with jeongin??

As I heard hurried footsteps coming down, Jeongin passed by me with a guilty face while Hyunjin was just smiling and cooing at how silly I looked.

"What? Surprised?" He smirked.
My heart shattered upon hearing that one of my best friends betrayed me and hooked up with my ex. I just stood there looking like a completely fool who didn't know how to do anything with himself.

"Are you jealous? Betrayed? Unconciously hurt? Well don't be, you've got a boyfriend now after all. It seems we both have moved on from eachother."
I didn't want to hear it, any of it. Is this the payment I get for being such a good person to anybody in life? Why the fuck am I here then if people continue to drag me and make me miserable?

As I looked to see him taking his footsteps near me, I kept backing off in disbelief until I hit ny back against the wall.

"Welcome back, Lixie."

Those agonizing words. Everything and everyone was just unfair, I thought I was living the happiest life until it hit me like a brick. Why did everything turn so suddenly. How?

I shoved Hyunjin and screamed at his face. "What's the matter with you! Why are you such a dick! What have I ever done to make you so unhappy with me!? Why was I never enough to you? Am I just some fucking pawn in your life??" Tears streamed down my eyes and I could feel the way my voice cracked at those words. They were harsh but I can't accept the truth nor will I ever get over it.

He simply looked at me and smiled.
"We were never a match. We were simply just different in eachother's world. That's all there is to it."

Those few sentences stabbed me in the heart and it felt like it was taken out and jabbed back in several times. 

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Anyway I'm thinking about starting a new story soon, hyunlix whatnot. How do you feel? I loved your guys' comments, I find them absolutely funny and seeing how people can get that feeling and they're just so endorsed from the reading makes me feel great. Thank you so much! I love you! Thanks for the love and support!

(deleted part of self-harm! I am sorry readers I simply cannot put myself to write stuff too bad that could be triggering for even me or others even with the caution in my story details)

                                     Last Update: 6/28/2023