BE A SINNER [ UNDER REVISION] (on-going)

PROLOGUE

Dumating ang araw na ito. everyone is busy decorating the place, prepapring food, gifts from each other. this is the day that the twin will have fun and enjoy. 

When everything is ready, we fall in line, waiting for the twin to come out. i'm with my sister's and brother beside me, while my parents are in the other side holding my chair  while waiting for celebrants. our friends and nanay rose are also here.

We're at the back of hour house, patiently waiting for the twins to complete this preparation.
ate Red and ate rhaid are holding a cake and wak together infront of the door where the twins supposed to come out.

after a few moment, the door was slowly open, together with the small gigles. 
when the door was finally open we saw the celebrants we wait for a mean time. they're in sleeping pajamas, obviously just woke up.

"Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday,happy birthday
Happy birthday to you" we sang together while smiling looking at them. they where suprise by suddenly's event and amusingly look and around and amaze fro what they see.

"Happy birthday Babies!"they said in unison, when the twins walk to them, they giving them both a peck of kiss on a cheeks. 

"Wow! thank you mama/Mammie's" they said in joyfull tone Then give them a peck but Sweet kiss. i slowly go to their direction to give my present. mom and dad take a walk enter the house and giving me and the kids a little moment.

"Happy birthday Mejiane and Rajane" i greet them and give a peck of kiss to them, then give my gift to the twins. 

i sudenly feel painted. together with the mild headache. but i never showed to them, 'cause i don't wanna ruined this party.

"Thank you po tita mamie/thank you po mamie"they greet together and give me a kiss that made me smile. 

"Welcome Little Ladie's" i said and smile.  "alright, go to your papulo and mamula, they've been waiting for you guys." i said then laugh a bit.

they gigles and also laugh before take a step and ready to go.

 but before they get  that, my vision gets blurry and start to feel dizzy. i try to maintain my self concious, as i touch my nose when i feel wet coming from it, i  saw blood. i hold my wheelchair  and close my eyes. 

"T-tita mamie are you ok?" rajane ask me with her worried expresion. i just smile at her giving her a sign that i'm gonna be ok. 

'Kaya ko nga ba?'

"Mamie!! Mama!!"sigaw ni Mediane ng syang dahilan ng pag tingin ng lahat ng tao dito sa pwesto namin.

"why baby? what happen?" boses nila ate habang papalapit sa pwesto namin.

Nakit ko sila kuya na napatingin sa pwesto ko at dali daling pumunta saakin

"H-hey bunso wag ka pikit ha? don't sleep. dadalhin ka namin sa hospital Wag ka muna pipikit hmm?"Aligagang saad ni kuya " kukunin ko lang yung sasakyan" the he left.

Naiyak na ako dahil sa nakikita ko ang pag alala at kaba sa mukha nila

"Shh shh bunso wag kana umiyak ok? Magiging maayos din ang lahat laban lng ha?" ate just wipe my tears and cover my nose that still bleeding until know.  

"B-blue" umiiyak na saad ng kambal ko. kahit na gusto niya lumapit saakin hindi niya magawa. she's afraid of blood. her wife holding her while looking at me with pity expression. 

while mom and others are in a panic mode. i feel fainted, and getting a hard time to breath.  i want to stay awake but my body didn't cooperate. Unti unti ng bumibigat ang talukap ng mata ko

"B-bunso huyy wag ka muna pipikit anjaan na si kuya inaayos na yung sasakyan. kapit kalang ok? Kapit kalang" saad ni ate saakin habang tinatapik tapik yung pisngi ko kaya nataranta na sila

Ngumiti lng ako sakanila at tuluyan ng pumukit, Narinig ko pa silang tinatawag ang pangalan ko.

'Gusto ko pang lumaban pero mismong katawan ko na ang bumigay, hanggang dito nlng talaga siguro ako...at least natupad ko pangko ko sa pamangkin at kapatid ko kahit papano kelangan ko na siguro mag pahinga..............................pang habang buhay'

'Ito narin siguro ang kabayaran sa Lahat ng nagawa ko? Eto naba yun? Kelangan ko na bang tanggapin to? Kakayanin ko ba? Do i need to accept my fate that im going to rest permanently? Or do i need to fight? I don't know what to do, Sobra sobra na ang pag hihirap at sakit na naranasan ko para sa lahat ng kasalanan ko'