Underground

Possible

All my life, I was told I am to marry a woman. I was ok with that, I had a lot of really nice friends who were women, and I even dated a few growing up. That's how it was, one day I would marry a girl, and that's that. 

But the burning is a familiar feeling. It's what I'd feel when I was with a girl I liked, or probably loved if it was at this severity. I always denied the feelings, as I've said before romance is icky.

Is it possible I love him? Very, easily, entirely plausible. Do I want to show that or tell him? Absolutely not. To much... mushy... complicated stuff to sift through.

That whole ordeal never really concluded. Kid and Allton kept fighting for the rest of the evening, so I spent the time preparing a bed for Kid.

I should probably ask for a working name. He and I are the same age, so 'kid' seems almost degrading, and Cookie seems too... sweet, but it is plausible. Smallfry sounds almost endearing, and I've clarified that's a feeling that I'd like to keep repressed for the time being.

"Are you two lovebirds done fighting? I'm tired, and Small looks 5 feet from death."

"I do? Ah shit, forgot to take the pills this morning... did I bringem?"

Small's words were starting to slur together. Poor thing. He's dying.

"Glad you have an excuse, but that doesn't get you in the clear, Allton. Go to sleep."

"Sooo, ace. Wheram I zleeping?"

"Oh, I set up a bed in my room. I am not letting you sleep with him."

"But you'll lemme zleep with you?"

"Ye-wait, no! No, no."

"Whydyou almost say yes."

"I was confused, ok? No one really says stuff like that to me!"

"Sad. Anyway, I mi die right here if I don zleep soon. I'll beat you domorrow, blondie. Come with an eggzorzist..."

I have to drag this kid away from Allton, again. I swear, he'll outlive everyone with pure sass and overconfidence. I manage to get him to settle down, letting him practice death threats on me until he gets it all out. 

I'm not too bothered by it. I know he doesn't mean any harm towards me, and the slurred speech removes some ting, but some of them seem on the edge. Like, almost offensive. I don't outright say that, a lot of it stems from Allton's past. Specific past events he's trusted me not to share, so I just say 'maybe not' or 'eeh' to shoot them down silently.

Allton might not be the best person, but he's still my friend. No matter who they choose to be.