With girls I'm a top but with guys I'm a bottom. I wanna meet someone who's different. Normal is fucking boring so it stopped taking my meds.
But now I need to get back on them because usually I clean my room is when I take my meds and I'm like look at what I've done to this place. When I clean I think about her. I always feel like she hates me.
I can't find the energy to clean my room with depression. It's always bed time. When I was a kid all I ever wanted was to be normal but for me normal is an unreachable task. It's one thing after another. I didn't think I would live this long because I'm always the bad guy.
