Again I look in a mirror. The light fades and demons appear. They whisper "You're ugly. No one would ever love some nasty freak like you." Those words were etched into my mind. They hurt me so much. They will only lead to my own destruction. They just laugh. I look at my eyes. They are empty and black (my eyes look black sometimes). I remember this guy, let's call him "Zach". Anyways "Zach" was a boy that I'm friends with. One time he looked at my face and burst out laughing. When I asked him why he's laughing he told me "Your eyes are so blank it makes it seem like you don't really think. That your daydreaming or something. You look like an idiot." The words people say hurt so much. I thought "Wow I'm apparently an idiot now. That really boosts my confidence" (that was sarcasm). Now I don't have very high self esteem and always think I'm going to fail. It made me do the things I knew I was okay at. The world turned gray (not actually I just mean boring or monotone) and my eyes became void of emotion. Lacking joy or sadness. Just blank.
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RandomEverything written is real. Names will be changed for privacy. These are thoughts and memories. The things I see. Perspective.
