I can't do this anymore, it burns me from the inside out. I think about loosing you every night, I think about loosing him every night.. And honestly I don't know what to do anymore.. I just feel numb.. I can't think clearly... My biggest fear is loosing you and him.. at the moment you two are the only ones keeping me alive and whenever I think of having to say goodbye, I feel like I just had something ripped away from me... and I can't.. I can't be strong enough, I never will be... I'm sorry..
