The past few days were full of realization but things just get coming to me lately.
I felt sorry for myself at how stupid I am. I forgot that I reminded myself that it's wrong. I forgot that when the timing isn't right, so is the person. I forgot that no wrong could ever be right.
And all of these, I just keep realizing now.
The mental slaps I'm giving to myself is overwhelming. How stupid could I be to have my heart broken twice by the same person? How stupid could I be to trust you easily again?
I do not know if I'm to be proud of myself since I can be considered as brave. I'm not one of those people who will say, "If we're destined, he'll come back." No. I think that's bullshit.
If you love a person, fight. Pull him towards you as much as you can. Sorry, I love him too much.
Then, I realize that there's a difference between 'too much' and 'so much'.
But it's a little too late now.
