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Two months later.
Two months without leaving the house, I didn't keep my promise to Stef, she beat me black and blue, right now I have a black eye, and a broken wrist, but no matter how much worst it gets I never die. I left the hospital after I was done talking to Kadeem, I was now sitting on the bed looking out the window at the cows.
It's cold, December is the best because Jesus Christ was born, I kinda miss church but I'm not mentally prepared to go, I feel like I'm letting down God, but I'm here...but I'm not...here.
"You," someone said, I didn't look back until she come into my view.
"Look here, you upset me I told you the dos and don'ts already, you nah guh a no more school, you'll be working at home" I finally gazed at her.
"I don't want to work"I mumbled looking back outside.
"Mi Neva ask yuh that, yuh affi look pretty so after yuh face heal properly, I bought you some dressed and underwear" she throws some revealing clothes on the bed.
"Wah that fah, and a which work".
"You will be a businesswoman, you and I will work together, how you think mi put food on the table fi everybody Nyam, I work for myself, now you reach the age fi help me"Stef's a prostitute, I found out at the age of fourteen.
She sent me in her purse and I saw condoms, random numbers, and late night leaving, barely clothed she nah set no example fi me.
"Mi nah sell mi self Stef, mi no wah have sex, "I said with my trembling voice, I wiped my running nose.
"You will".
"Stefani mi nah sell mi self, mi fraid mi no wah nobody a touch mi body please Stef, you said I will get pregnant if I do it,".she started putting the clothes on the dresser
"You sign the contract, it's better if you don't come with the one bagga noise, mi mek sure get somebody fi mek yuh get used to it, it no hot Kahdeja, sex no hot, just moan and pretend you like it, the men you'll be entertaining that night is from another club, doh fuck up, if dem seh suck dem off, dweet and get the money" she yells.
"Yuh ripe Kahdeja man ago love off yuh body, and yuh breast big, man love big breast, and white man ago deh there tek all a dem money" she smiled,
That was in the fine print.
"Please no"I went on my knees begging her, mi always strong, I never begged, but mi hopeless, but she just walked away and look at the razor blades on the dresser weh Calvin use to shave his eyebrows.
☘︎ Mention of suicidal attempt!!!
I'm not suicidal
But I think I've reached my limit of living...
I grabbed it going into the bathroom, mi full up the bath with pipe water, then sit on the toilet, mi no have no body weh mi close to fi seh mia write a letter, mi cya live wid this anymore, it's too hard mi mind wah rest mi confused and hopeless.
I turned off the pipe and lay down in the bathtub, I closed my eyes begging God to understand how they treat me, the pressure I feel living in this household, it's too much...now prostitution, a man touching my body without my permission doesn't sit right with me.
Author's Pov 🦋
Kahdeja used the blade to cut on her right hand, six different ones, the blood was running out faster when she put it under the water, and her eyes got weak.
I'm so sorry...she mumbled to herself, even strong people break sometimes.
Daniel's POV
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I hate family reunions, I was just in my corner with a table fulla liquor, "Hey brother, a wah do yuh"Brandy asked opening the Campari.
"Yuh no underage, mi good weh Mom no see r from mi come"I cover my head with my grey hoodie, then I remember two months ago when mi give her one a mi black ones.
"Yuh know how mi roll already, n she upstairs wid Auntie Deja, dem muss a get dressed up"I just nod.
"You did fun one time, you barely a seh one sentence to we, a wah happen we close to you eno, you hate we Daniel," she said.
"No Neva, yah mi family, just a medz more while no worry mi deh yah man, how school a gwann, "I drank what was left from my glass.
"Well it's alright-"Aaricia run come seh hi and grabbed her, mussi gone gossip, I got up, mi deh yah long enough.
I got in my Lamborghini Gallardo speeding down the road, she deh Pon me mind from wah day yah, I was just troubling her, I don't want her sexual, nahh see r as a friend, shit u don't even fuck with people like that.
Never want she feel uncomfortable but me cya spot r anywhere fi apologize, mi try put me self in her shoes, and mi know it must uncomfortable.
I fucked up
I need to leave for Italy tomorrow for a business meeting, I got too much on my mind right now, and mi need fi see how dem gun shipping deh ago, cause mi no wah nobody a Fuck wid mi, n mi know when them a lie.
She lied and mi still wah know her.
I decided to stop at the house I dropped her off two months ago, I knocked on the grill, bad mi bad.
"Hello is Deja here" it was an elderly man, he was white.
"Two houses from here, maybe dem gone cause dem family have a get together down the street," he said, I thanked him and head fi that house, it was dark no light, it all look like nobody no deh yah.
I knocked on the door and no one came, I picked the lock.
Yah thief my subconscious said
Another hidden talent.
I looked around no one was there, no someone in yah mi can feel something wrong, then mi get a sudden headache"bomboclat dawg" I groaned then it gone after a couple of seconds.
A cya drunk mi drunk.
Mi see a room weh look like the bathroom open up, mi walk to it and knocked, mi couldn't believe mi fucking eyes.
