Thoughtless Love

Chapter One: Truth

When I was younger I would always hear how my grandfather turned down the chance for a writer to write a book about our family. He always said "no one needs to know about our business or who our family is. It doesn't matter how much money they want to give me." (That story is for another time.) I had those words instilled in my brain that no one ever needed to know my family's business, until now. Everyone has claimed to have known me and what really happened and how it happened. And I just want to get the truth out there and for people to know my story about my own life. In order for you to understand I have to start at the beginning and give you a quick run down on my life to tell you how I ended up where I ended up.

My name is Allison Torres. I live in a small town in Texas that only ever cared about sports. My town was great at sports, especially the football and baseball areas. I was not even close to an athlete, I was a nerd, band geek, and shy girl. I have dark brown hair and light brown eyes. I wear glasses, but I do wear contacts every so often. I am Hispanic but I am very fair skinned with a yellow glow so I basically look White, even though my grandparents mainly spoke Spanish. I only have one dimple, which is a strange trait that runs in my family. I am so short that I am only an inch over five feet. My grandfather was a farmer, my grandmother was a cancer survivor, and my mother, Mary Torres, was a single mother.

I was good at so many things in life, but love and men were not one of them. I felt like I was always getting controlled or told what to do. I just could not keep a man for the life of me. I kept telling myself that it would get better and there was someone out there for me. I had my first child, Matthew Torres, at the age of 20, he is the light of my life. Being a single parent and a college student at 20 is extremely difficult but I got through it. I had my second child, Olivia Torres, at the age of 22. This time I had a horrible, stressful job and I wasn't using my degree I received from college. I was officially a single mother to two children. It was amazing to not have to share my children with another person and I never had to wonder where they were, but times got hard when they began to ask questions about themselves. I had given up on love. I thought that I would never get married, and I was content with a life with myself, my two children, and my mother. This was enough for me, and the thought of marriage was nauseating, because I could not imagine having to deal with another person for the rest of my life that I did not birth.

But I continued to push forward and went back and got my bachelors degree and I was able to provide a wonderful life for my kids. While attending college I discovered the world of influencing. It was great. This is what paid for my kids' necessities. I got plenty of things for free that I definitely would not have had if it were coming from my own pocket and I was extremely thankful for that. It was fun and I gained quite a bit of followers from this and I began to get noticed by some big companies. This was all life changing for myself and my family.

After a project for a class led me to build my first company, I was able to gain even more followers on all social media platforms. I was beginning to live the dream. In between my own company, influencing, and having a degree we were able to move from this small town to live in Austin, Texas. I was living a dream that I couldn't have even dreamed of. My kids had everything they could need and want. I felt like all my dreams had finally come true and this was my perfect life.

But this was nothing compared to what was to come..

I was about to go down a path that I would have never known existed.

I thought I was living the life now, but this was nothing compared to the life that was to come. I was not prepared for what was around the corner for my life. I thought this was my perfect life, but turns out it was only the beginning. The beginning of what seems like not only the greatest love story ever but the most tragic and heartbreaking moments of my life that did not seem were even possible at the time.

Now let me show you how I met HIM, the person who would change my life and destiny. The person that changed the whole course of my life and introduced me to so many wonderful, joyful memories, but also some brutal, gut wrenching ones.

This is my tragic love story.