Don't Tell Me I'm a Heartbreaker (EDITING*)

Chapter 22

I was sitting in my lonely house how just surfing on my computer. I haven't spoken to Channel since earlier today.

Al I really wanted was Selena back. Thats all I have ever wanted since I saw her at the bar as soon as I got out of jail.

I will never let myself settle with the fact maybe I just will never get her back.

When I settle with that fact is when I lose all hope, and without hope there is nothing to live for.

Everyone hopes, even the most realistic of people. They hope, you hope and you hope until it happens and when it doesn't that's what you hope for. You dream to keep you going. People say that their significant other or children keep them going... but that's not true. It's the hope... it's the dream, of the future. Future pleasure and future happiness. If you were told today you will forever be unhappy, you wouldn't be able to go on. Or maybe if you didn't have any other choice you'd hope that the outcome will change.

You have the choice to make the change, to be happy and hope for future happiness. To love yourself and to be loved.

She is my hope. I have hope in her, that's all I can have, since I don't have the choice.

"Hey," I heard Channel's now familiar voice ring behind me, bringing me out of my thoughts.

"What's up?" I said spinning around to face her.

"I, I can't be at my apartment. It is too lonely and empty." She admitted and bit her lip.

"So why did you come here?" I asked honestly.

"You're the only one that would sort of understand what I am going through." she sighed and flopped on my couch.

"True, so what do you want to do?" I said joining her on the couch and grabbed a cardigan to cover my suspender straps.

"I don't know, watch tv or something?" She shrugged and cuddled a pillow.

I nodded and clicked on the tv. Show after show passed by every half our and I wasn't focused. I was about to drift off to sleep because I was already engulfed in my own head.

"I'm going to be right back." Channel said hopping groggily of the couch and headed to the cost rack. She grabbed one of my sweat jackets and headed out of the door.

I nodded but I actually nodded off to sleep for about two hours.

I woke up to a night mare.

"Channel!! Channel! AHHH!" I screamed because of the person sitting on the couch next to me.

"Oh yea, we need to talk." She bit her lip.

"I never died, I took a prototype pill which cured any head trauma days after." He said with his dark eyes.

"I went to jail for you!" I said my years of angst shooting out.

"Listen I kept him away from everyone, but I need him. He will help get Selena back. I read online that trauma equals reverse trauma." She said knowing there was another longer explanation that she didn't want to explain to me.

"Do you even know the pain you caused her?! It's like my whole life was a lie." I spat.

"I couldn't come back, I broke my promise. That's the worst thing that could've happened to her." He countered.

"No, the fact that she lost you and me because of it was the worst thing." I growled.

"You didn't have to take the wrap." He snorted.

"You didn't have to come back from the dead." I snickered.

"It was a cardiac arrest, I never fully died. Those were shitty doctors."

" Whatever Lucas, but you better get my Selena back."

Authors Note: hey guys!!! Yep he's back! What do you guys think about that well yea and u always wanted to say THANK YOU SO MUCH for even reading it this far I'm so emotional because I thought it wouldn't even get 1K tbh because well I'm new at this. Oh and thank you so much Tiffany_Nn_Wllms_29 for being amazing I wanna dedicate this chapter to you!!!😘