Inevitable

23. A Breakdown 🧎🏼‍♂️

(Sierras Pov)
Draco slammed the door and left. I immediately get up to follow him but Mattheo pulls me back.
"Let him be." He said.
"No I can't I just feel like I need to follow him."
Mattheo loses grip of my arm as I run out.

"Draco wait." I yell.
He turns to look at me and keeps walking.
He turns the corner and goes into the boys lavatory.
Shit.

(Draco's Pov)
I face myself in the mirror. What's wrong with me. Why am I crying I feel weak. I can't be weak,
I can't.
I splash water on my face to try to cool myself down but it doesn't work.

"Draco?" I hear a voice say.
Fuck she followed me in.

"Go away." I yelled back.
"It's okay I just wanna talk."
"Every time someone says that it all goes to shit." I said.

"It won't if you actually listen."
"Nows not the time Sierra." I angrily say.
I hear her footsteps and see her reflection in the mirror.
Fuck.

I wipe my nose and turn to face her.
"Please just leave me alone." I say as my voice cracks.

(Sierras Pov)
Draco turns to face me and redness filled his eyes. I stood there in shock unsure what to say. I've never seen Draco cry before or even be nearly this upset.

"Draco I forgive you okay. Please I don't wanna see you cry."
"Not everything's about you Sierra." He snarled.
"You seriously think I'm upset over our petty little fight."
"Well why are you crying then." I walk up to him and put my hand on his face. He looked at me and shook his head.

"It's not important okay just go back to the dorm." His voice shook with every word.
"Draco I will not leave this room until you tell me."

"I don't wanna go home." Said Draco finally giving in.
"Why not?" I say back. He sits against the wall and puts his head to his knees.

"I don't wanna see my father, I can't do it Sierra I can't." His voice breaks as spoke.

"I know you don't have the best relationship with him but atleast your friends will be there with you once you get the mark."

"No, no it's not that." He says trying to catch his breath.
"What is it then?" I ask. He finally looks up to face me. His cheeks are filled with tears and his eyes are red and puffy. He shakes his head again.

"It's not important please just let it go."
"Draco what is it darling?" He looks up at me the second I call him that and a sad smile grows on his face.

"I like when you call me that."
"Don't change the subject just tell me.
Please." I say.

"Sierra he hurts me." His voice breaks again.
My face drops. And I'm not sure how to respond.

"I knew I shouldn't have told you." He sighs and puts his head back down to his knees but I lift it up and hold it against my chest. He leans his head into me. And I can hear his soft sobs.

"Draco I'm so sorry." I say running my hand through his hair.
"Who all knows?" I ask.
"Everyone but Pansy." He replies.

"They've all seen it. I make one wrong move and he hits me."
"Does your mother know?" I ask.

"My mom begs him to stop but he doesn't listen. And the more she pisses him off the higher the chance she gets hurt too." 
"Draco I'm so sorry."

"If he's mad he takes his anger out on me and calls me all these degrading names. He says I'm useless, incompetent, an embarrassment, a failure.

He's never once said he was proud of me. All I want is for someone to be proud of me." He says with a shaking voice.

"Draco I'm proud of you."
"About what, what good thing have I ever done." He asks. I sit there in silence trying to come up with a response.

"See no one can help me, my father can't be fixed.
I can't be fixed." He says.
"You don't need to be fixed Draco." I said softly.

"Don't lie to me Sierra. I'm possessive, controlling, clingy, I have jealousy issues, I get mad easily the list goes on."

"Draco your so much more then that."

"It's all my dads fault I'm this way. I grew up in a home where he was in control. Over me, my mom. I saw the way he treated her. He controlled her every move, didn't let her leave the house, gave her orders.

He had such little patience. He made me think I had to act a certain way. I know it's all wrong but I can't help what I do or the way I think.
I'm trying I'm really really trying,"

I hate seeing Draco this way. Every word he said felt genuine and I just wanted to tell him none of it was true.

Except it was true. He is possessive and controlling. And he does have jealousy issues.

He wrapped his arms around me and sunk his head further into my chest.

"I'm sorry I treat you terribly, I really am. But I can't help it. I try so hard not to be jealous but it's not in my nature."

"No that's not true. Think about after the party or after we shagged. You went out of your way to make sure I was comfortable." I felt him shake under my touch which made me pull him closer.

I sat their and held him I can tell he needed it.
I guess no one's ever comforted him like this but I wanna be there for him.

"Thank you for doing this Sierra. Even after I treated you like a bitch and said all this shit to you. Thank you for being here for me."

"Always." I said smiling

(Draco's Pov)
I sat cuddled up in her arms. And all of the embarrassment left me. I really needed someone to hold me like this. I'm so fucking touch deprived. I sat there and cried into her arms. She didn't once judge me and I felt safe. That's saying a lot considering I don't feel safe anywhere.

I then stood up and took off my shirt.
"I had you on your back most of the time we shagged so you didn't see it but I'm all bruised up. I turned around showing her my marks on my back and heard a gasp.

"Holy shit Draco." I stayed silent. I felt her soft hands run along my back going over each and every mark. I then felt her lips kissing my shoulders which caused me to smile.

"Thank you for listening. And I beg you. Don't tell anyone what just happened."

"I won't Draco." She replied in a whisper.