Will I ever find love

I can't do it

Safiya pov
Well my 18th birthday suck Shawn broke up with me and date Maggie lindemann and that hurt me so much I miss him so much I can believe I love him and move to LA and he left me. Like his songs stitches. I don't know how to forget but to cut. Nafeeza asked for my razor a few days ago and I give it to her I know see saw my cuts so I think she hide it. I look on Instagram and see Shawn and Maggie kissing I cried. I grab my camera and I record
" hey wonderful beautiful people I her to tell you I may not be YouTube a lot because I'm going through so much" I pull down my sleeve and show my almost healed cut. " I just can't get over the fact that " I see tear slip I hear my voice cracking. " I loved Shawn and just didn't return the same" I cried. So I cut and upload it and change to go to sleep.
You watch me bleed until I can't breathe
I'm shaking, falling onto my knees
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
Tripping over myself,
Aching, begging you to come help
And now that I'm without your kisses
I'll be needing stitches
I hum till I fall asleep. Then my message buzzed. I looked and see it a text from Shawn my heart did that weird fast beat. I ignore it. I walk into nafeeza room to cheer up cause Nash did the same but with Madison beer. I opened the door and saw the worse thing.
"Nafeeza stop" I said running to her.
" he left me with pain " she wail and cut her wrist. I pulled the razor out of her arms and throw the razor away. I walk to her and try to comfort her. After that I wrote a song and I walk to Shawn house. I knock and Maggie open it shawn behind her. With no word I place it in Maggie hand and walk away.
Shawn pov
Maggie open the door and I saw Safiya she was very pale from her Carmel skin it made me sad. She handed Maggie something and walk away. Maggie gave it to me and I read.
Air ( do it with astrid)
[Shawn:]
Never thought that we would end up here,
Should've known it from the start
I know you mean it when you say you love me,
But we're trying way too hard

[Astrid:]
Used to think that we would last forever,
How could I've been so wrong
Never thought I'd be the one to say this,
What if our time has come and gone?

[Both:]
You, you don't mean no harm
But you're stringin' me along and I don't have the time to spare
And I, I'm trying hard to breathe
But you're suffocating me, this time I'm coming up for air

Air [x12]

[Astrid:]
Always tryna put your two sense in
Then expecting me to change
Tried to fix me up but I'm not broken,
All you do is leave me stained

[Shawn:]
Told you not to tie me down too quickly,
Take it slow it's not a race
And you keep on tryna reel me in but,
All I really need is space

[Both:]
You, you don't mean no harm
But you're stringin' me along and I don't have the time to spare
And I, I'm trying hard to breathe
But you're suffocating me, this time I'm coming up for air

Air [x12]
Air [x12]

[Shawn:]
Trying to hold me down
But I'm surfacing
It's hard to let you go,
But I gotta leave

[Both:]
You, you don't mean no harm
But you're stringin' me along and I don't have the time to spare
And I, I'm trying hard to breathe
But you're suffocating me, I'm coming up for air

You, you don't mean no harm
But you're stringin' me along and I don't have the time to spare
And I, I'm trying hard to breathe
But you're suffocating me, this time I'm coming up for air

Air [x12]
Air [x12]
I love it and I felt like a jerk. She had been so much better than Maggie is. Safiya smile and dance and sang and was on gymnastics team. I so stupid. I look through Instagram and the this video with jack g open the door of Katy Safiya and Nafeeza on the ground. Oh no