waltz for one lonely heart · saiouma

WALTZ FOR ONE LONELY HEART

TW: SUICIDE

( BEFORE KOKICHI & KAITO DIED )

petals which were once soft and fresh,
a fragrance memorable and sweet,
are now hardened, the colour of rotting flesh,
this is the place where two worlds meet.

hidden in the darkness of the night,
the rose no longer received sunlight.
crisp was the feel of each petal as it solidified,
whilst maroon, the colour, harshly intensified.

the thorns got stronger,
the leaves couldn't bother,
and the rose didn't want
its life any longer.

oh, when would this end,
this suffering and pain?
could someone please send
a little rainbow to this rain?

wilting willting,
the stem's strength was gone,
or was it tilting,
towards a nearby lawn?

the grassy scent,
soothed the soul,
perhaps this meant
that soon I'll feel whole?

from fragile to fertile,
absorbing the fresh feeling,
thinking meanwhile,
was I finally healing?

yes, indeed,
my layers were healed,
but how? it hit me then,
we wilt only to bloom again.

~ m.p.

well then why wasn't he blooming again? how long would it take?

why is it always him? why does it have to be him?can't he just have a break?

No, not right now. Not when everyone hates him. They could kill him any second.

⮕

Kokichi sat in bed, his pajama's hanging off his body. The pajamas were the perfect size for him when they first got in this hellhole, what happened?

Why should he even leave his room? What would be the point of that? No one would talk to him, or even acknowledge his existence unless he annoys them.

But he knew he had to.

He slumped out of bed, almost falling, his head hurting like shit.

He changed and walked out, sighing in relief when no one was in the hallway.

He didn't have to put on that hideous fake smile just yet.

As he walked into the cafeteria he was greeted by many angry, hateful looks that he didn't even bother saying or doing anything about it.

He suddenly grinned, making all of them wonder what he was thinking for him to just randomly smile like that as he disappeared into the kitchen.

After he came back, he sat down at the end of the table, which made him alone.
Some wondered why since he always sat by everyone even though they hated his guts.

He started laughing. It wasn't one of those crazy laughs, just giggling.
"...I think he's going crazy." Kaito said.

He put a piece of paper on the table and got up, leaving.

"....?" maki was the first to get up and get the paper, and began to read it.

"what does it say?"

"it says 'go into my room at 1AM'."

".....He's asking us to go into his room?? does he know how suspicious that sounds?"

"nyeh...maybe we'll get to know more stuff about him if we do it.. we shouldn't go alone though..just in case he wants to kill one of us.."

"that's true, himiko.." shuichi said as he turned to maki and kaito.

kaito nodded, but maki just stared for a little.