I trusted you.
The way you spoke to me, how you encouraged me. The first to tell me that I was the most important person in your eyes.He picked me up when I fell. Neve, leaving my side, let me make my mistakes . Judgment was never in your eyes.
The longer we stayed, the more we discovered on our journey.The smiles when I did cheering me on the loudest. Never show disappointment for all to see. Always finding the words to think about.keeping me moving forward without holding me back to keep me trapped.
I felt like I was on the right track, going to be the best I could be . I grow from my mistakes and always think and feel with my heart. I will stand up for myself and be proud that I did . Lucky to know I had you behind me. Lucky to know I was never alone, even if you were not beside me.
Then that awful day came when things changed. I never left your side. Keep the encouragement flowing . I was cheering you on as you were scared and at a loss of your own. I will not lie and say I know what you are feeling or going through. I give you my word that I will do my best to help you .
The day has come when your words cut deep. They hurt more than you know . You can't take them back, no matter where your mind is at. The things you said shattered my heart . One of two people that I never thought would be so evil with their words. You have so much hate in your heart . I don't know where it came from or why . You were loved and always had a hand for help .
The day came when you put your hands on me . I held my head up high with no sadness to be seen. not providing you with more fuelIt did not matter when you slapped me in the face and said "I hate you . Stop trying, you will be nothing . slapping me again, pulling my close.You did not care, you felt you were in power .
The truth is you were the weak one with fear in your eyes . You did not break me and I did not give you any ducks to give . You walked away to fill the room with your hate. I closed you off and found my peaceful place. Your slap did not hurt. It never left a mark. But the shock is there and I wonder why you felt putting your hands on me was the thing to do.
I did not fight you back . I did not touch you. I made a vow to never let your word affect me ever again. You lost that. The day you changed and let evil win. You might not see it or understand it. Like a drug addict and not knowing anything. I keep that in my mind when the switch turns on in your brain. It helps a little that no one will get it.
Now I sit with a stranger in my life. I don't turn my back because you can't take care of yourself. I am the bigger person. I hold the key to my peace. I will do what I can with the distance between us . I don't need you to close any more. A wall is up and it will come down. The day you die, I can let my heart cry for the person I lost so long ago. Not the person you are now.
Depression is here and it has its role . I have to find my step and push myself. Get out of bed and keep moving forward. I will have the break I need one day. It might now be what others see or say I should have. I am grateful for the little things. The ones that take the time to see how I am. A joke between friends or a heart-to-heart I know I made it through another day.
I know it's hard to do, but be kind to others for you never know what is really going on in their lives. Don't let evil find its way in . This world is already a dark place . Find the light and what is meant to be. Be concerned about others who are unsure of who they are or how to act.Sometimes it's not their fault at all. Keep your heart light and free.
You will have people that show you compassion. Those are the ones that have been through hell of their own and you would never know their story. They have a caring heart and want to make sure you are okay and doing well above their problems. They are rare to find, but they are a gem to have.
I trust myself !
