The bad boy and me

Chapter 7

Picture: Thomas (Peyton Meyer)
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After we had that conversation he started to ask me when our foster father started to molest me but I wouldn't answer it's hard already just thinking about it without having an anxiety attack. Thomas seemed to understand and dropped it he went to call someone and that person seemed to be Luke Yay!! note the sarcasm. I pulled the covers further up and looked away from him knowing that he knows something not even Thomas knew. He noticed my hesitation to look at him he sat next to me and put two fingers under my chin and turned my head so I was looking at him , I avoided eye contact since I really couldn't look at him. I couldn't without thinking I'm so damn stupid , like why didn't I pull my arms away when he grabbed them I'm really stupid right? I glanced up and saw him looking at me with worry a look I never want to see again he doesn't deserve this and neither do I. I shook my head and spoke up "Luke look I know its hard for you to see me like this its hard on everyone all the damn time..... I know you wanna stay here and help me but you have to go and you have to stay away from me you're gonna end up getting hurt if not by me then someone else and I don't want that to happen ever." ~ I told him, he romovedd his fingers and sat there with an emotionless expression on his face. I was honestly scared the only person I've seen with that exact expression was Bryan the night he raped me the memory is still fresh and now my own Foster Father touches me and forces me to touch him in ways you wouldn't even think about doing to your dad. I'm just glad that I was able to get away from him and that the guy saved me or else he could've done so much worse to me that night its hard to picture myself going back to California where all of this happened , after it all happened the guy took me to the police station and I reported what Bryan did he was put in jail for 5-6 years. So far its been 1 and a half years and I really don't want him to get out his last words haunt me in my dreams and even when I'm awake , he scremed "I'll be watching and waiting for the right moment. Nothing can stop me I'll be back for you!!" , sometimes I wonder who he has watching me. I know my Foster dad was in the same gang that he was the leader of hopefully he isn't because if he is then he's a deadman when he finds out what he's done to me everyone in that gang knew I was his. When they found out he was in jail they came after me a couple times but they knew they couldn't touch me or he'd kill them one way or another even though he's behind bars. I felt Luek wiping something off my cheeks so I brought my hands up and wiped them and noticed they were tears how did I not realize I was crying?