heart nowhere to be found

feels

My heart had more than
4 season
Like,how it changes it courses
From happy to sad to anger to
Disappointment to loneliness
There's too much to feel
And too little to act upon
Sometimes i wish i could feel more
Other times i wish i could feel less
But feeling is the thing,
clear as the sky
Deep as the ocean
Hurt like a brick
Hot as lava
Cold as ice
I wish I had more control on it
More than it had on me
Cause I tend to follow my feeling rather
Than my head
That's why I put a wall around my heart
So everything don't shatters
And break apart

-me