Stockholm syndrom

Day 5

I know they'll be coming to find me soon

Waking up is again difficult. I barely open my eyelids. When I jump up and hit my head against the wall. He stands in front of me watching me intensely.

- Beauty sleep time is over.

He grabs my arm and aggressively unties me to once again lead me to his psycho bathroom. He lets me go. This time he doesn't need to speak as I start to undress. Two showers in 5 days too generous of him .He throws underwear at me. I look at him in incomprehension.

- That's all you'll get now. To feel as embarrassed as you made me feel.

Flashback of December 16, 8:30 a.m.

I've been standing in front of his house for a while unable to move. I have no idea what I was thinking I should never have accepted. I should go back home. As I was about to retrace my steps, the door opened.

-Talia?

He stands there in total incomprehension. He looks as surprised as me, to happen on me.

- What are you doing here?

He asks me since I remain with my mouth open without emotions or sign of life. I hardly speak.

- Hey... Styles! It's been a while.

- Yeah, since you started ignoring me, I'd say, 3 years.

He answers stupidly by closing the door behind him before starting to walk. I follow him without really understanding why.

- I'm sorry. I was stupid. I believed that being liked and popular was more important than our friendship. But I was wrong, I miss you...

He stops abruptly. Looks at me from head to toe. I can't read the emotions on his face right now. When suddenly he jumps into my arms.

- I missed you too... so much.

I breathe in relief. I feel a knot in my throat thinking about what I'm about to do to him. Sorry Harry... I hope you can forgive me.

For the next days, we had lunch together every single day. People were looking at us of course he thought it was because I used to be popular and now, I had sided with him, but they knew the truth. They knew the horrible thing I was doing, and they liked it. It entertained them. I know I've hurt him in unspeakable way now. He loved me; he always did. Back to the playground to now.

I nod slightly and get into the shower. I can feel his eyes running through my body. I turn around and face him, I start examining him. I didn't notice before how tired his face traits seems, or how his eyes are full of darkness, sadness, and anger. He's almost unrecognizable from the man he once was. Darkness always been part of him I know that, but it's like it's all he is now. And I did that.

-What?

I suddenly get pulled out of my head, by his hoarse voice.

-          Nothing I was just thinking.

-          Stop looking at me then.

-          Does it make you nervous when I do?
I feel stupid as soon as that gets out of my mind . I'm playing a dangerous game right there .

-          No... no! Don't flatter yourself.

He says nervously. I can't control myself from smiling, I found my way out today. He loves me and I must convince him I do too. I have to play it smart. I get out of the shower and accidently step in glass. I scream in pain looking at that huge piece of glass sticking out of my foot. He rushes to me, take me in his arms and bring me to an old chair in a corner of the basement, I haven't seen yet. He lets me there and goes some place. He comes back with an emergency kit. I look up there's too much blood and I let him full control of my foot. I scream as he takes all the pieces of glasses out. He stops and go look for something, when he comes back, he gives me this stress ball. I look at him confused.

-Squeeze it, it'll help you forget the pain.

I smile gently at him. I don't get him he wants me to suffer , but he seems to forget it sometimes.

- Why are you helping me right now ?

Every muscle in his face contracts , he become a little more rough patching me up now .

- I'm not , I don't want blood everywhere . And I need you to be able to be on your feet for what I plan to do with you. I couldn't care less about you.

That just cost me a huge step back . I hate walking on eggshells and I suck at it .

- Well,  thank you.

He doesn't answer and he's now unable to look at me . He puts me back where my chains are and tie me up before going away .

"You fucking coward you couldn't let her suffer like she made you. She deserves the pain , remember that . "