His last letter

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Hiii I'm alive kinda honestly forgot about this book because I've just been posting in my Brance book but here I am again
Angst
TW-suicide
Sanemi POV-
       It wasn't exactly abnormal to receive letters from other members of the core. Except tomioka. He didn't seem to send letters to anyone except the master. Even since we've started to get closer I've never received a single letter from him. And god i wish it could have stayed that way because the first letter i ever got from him would also be the last.
                        1 Hour prior
  Sanemi POV (still)-
    It was an uneventful day like always. I was finishing up training when I saw my crow fly in with a letter from tomioka? As long as I've known him he's never sent me or any hashirama single letter. It must be important, I thought as I opened the letter addressed to me.
    Dear Sanemi,
        I am sorry that it has come to the point where you have to read this letter but it has. I can't take this overwhelming feeling of loneliness anymore. Not after i've lost everyone close to me and being constantly pushed around by my fellow hashira. But I wish to give you my final words, all written out. I do not wish for anyone else to see this letter. Everyone will become aware of what I have done when the time is right. But there is still something I must tell you before I depart from this lifetime and it's that, I love you. Yes those are the right words, the words I haven't told a soul since I was a child. BUt here I found them again before my death. You truly are special no matter how much you teased or yelled at me. I still feel for your charm, it's sad really I'll never find out if you ruley feel the same for me. Maybe in another lifetime, a lifetime where I am happy once again, a lifetime in which we can be together. Or maybe that's all too distant from a dream that I will never truly experience. BUt i suppose I should say my actual goodbyes now. I'm sorry that I must leave this way instead of living out my natural life period. BUt i do suppose it is this cruel world that has driven me to the brink of taking my own life so I suppose I shouldn't be the one to apologize. But even if I am gone from this world I will still love you and I hope that I will still be alive in your heart.
Sanemi POV-
    I dropped the letter as it formed in the corners of my eyes. I couldnt believe him he fucking left me here. He said he loved me just to leave me here. I didn't know what to do as warm salty tears streamed down my face. I pulled myself up onto my feet and ran out my door. I definitely wasn't thinking right but damn it if i could do anything about this situation i was going to. Damn it i couldn't let him die i just couldn't.
    I had been running for a while before finally reaching the water. I practically broke the door opening it moving quickly through the practically empty water pillars home before reaching the bathroom. There he was sitting peacefully on the floor bleeding from both his wrists. He was unconscious but you could still see his chest lifting with each breath. I just stood for a second before finally being able to move again. I scooped him up in my arms, whispering words of assurance to him as I quickly took him to the butterfly mansion.
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That's how I got here sitting on a bedside chair holding the hand of the love of my life as he lay completely still with a shallow breath in bed.
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