Up And down

The morning

Ok first of all I couldn't sleep at all last night. I was to busy thinking about my surgery. So I couldn't sleep. But it was almost time for the surgery. I'm so scared. I didn't know what was going to happen. What if it wouldn't work. Thought went through my head. So I got more scared. But they started getting me ready for surgery. So I the pushed me to this big room with all kinds of tools. So they told me to to be still and then they put a shut in my arm and I started to feel tired and all I knew i fell a sleep then woke up in the white room and saw all those memories again. I wonder if they was try to tell me something. So when I was starring at the wall of memories but right the I felt someone touch me. I looked over and saw.......... My mom and dad. I screamed mom, dad. But they looked different. They look younger. But I knew it had to be a dream. Because I knew my mom and dad was die because the died in a car wreak. So my mom and dad said i had to push through this surgery. I said I don't know how.. But then kept telling me that it was a dream. And that I know I have to push through surgery. Started to say I'm to young to die. I can't I want to live me life. I want to have fun. But all of a sudden my mom and dad disappeared. But then my old friend Erica was standing right beside me when I woke up. Holding my hand tight. Saying she sorry and that she miss me a lot and she told me to be strong and I could fight this. I started cry it wasn't sad tear. It was happy and sad. Because I got my best friend back and because I didn't know how to be strong and fight and everyone want stop saying that. But then she said she can't ever loose me because she would cry in till the last day. But I knew no one cared about me that much and I knew no one would that because my friend always ditch me for someone else. And I knew that no one would ever miss me because I'm just a person that never keeps her mouth shut. But then she said not cry everything will be all right. That God had me in his thoughts. But I said why will her put me through all this pressure. She said because that he knew I was strong for this. But I said I'm not. I cried everyday because I thing I'm going to die but then she said abbey was going nuts with out me at school. She started crying in class because of the email u sent her. She said it was sad see u stay in the hospital a lot. But then I said I have to tell yall something. With tear coming down my face I said that the doctor said I only have a year to live but if the surgery helps I will be a out of the hospital in a couple of months. Erica started crying