Up And down

Erica p.o.v

I can't believe grace would have go though this pain. She deserver more. Instead of being in the hospital . She think no loves her. She thinks that everyone ditch her. She thinks she alone but she not. I love her with all my heart. She don't understand how bad it hurts me to see her cry. And I would cry for ever If she dies . Seeing her in the hospital killed me and knowing that she is going to die in a year that made me burst in tears knowing that she is dying and I feel so bad for the way I been treating her. Ditching her for other people but I feel so bad right now because we had a huge fight the other day before she went to the hospitals. She was probably felt alone because she didn't have any family and I was her closest best friend besides abbey. But I need to go see her and tell her sorry for what I said and I didn't mean it but seeing her in the hospital broke me to all of pieces and seeing her cry saying that she couldn't do this anymore made me brushed in tears. And I can't believe that God would do this to her and I know that he loves us all the same but I think he should be watching her very carefully. And I hope he knows that it would destroy the people that love her. And I know I shouldn't say this but she needs to stop worrying so much and fight.
Back at school the next day. I told abbey what she said and abbey started to cry and I did to and then we told the teacher and they said to tell her to be strong. And so we all was going to send her flowers. So we got pink roses and a card that said " get well soon.

Grace p.o.v
I sat in my bed. Just starring out the hospital window. And thinking, may be it time to just give up. No one cares about me they just act like do. Maybe it's time to just stop fighting. Maybe it time to let it all end here. Just let everything stop. It seem that my mom and dad didn't care about me. Maybe I should just let my life disappear instead of letting each day be a nightmare that's hurt me and everyone. I feel that I'm alone and hurt very much in the inside. I feel that I should just give up on life. Just let my friends down and stop fighting for what not going to happen. Everyone think that I'm ok, but I'm not I'm still broke, hurt, unfixable. Everyone thinks that it's all going to go away but I feel like this cancer is going to end my life for ever because it's unfixable. I feel like my life is just a dream. That it's all going to end all one day. I'm still broken from the fight that me and Erica had but no one seem to notice or they don't seem to care. I know she said sorry but sorry don't fixes everything. So for now I'm just going to let cancer do what it wants i can't fight it no more. If I do it going to hurt me. And I know after all this fighting it going to kill me. My heart feels empty. No love, no care, no hope. It feels broken. So I'm just going to sit here think of some reason to fight. But I know the a dead end road waiting for me. But then I got some flower. And victors it was Erica, abbey, and faith. They saw me crying and said what's wrong I told them that I feel broken, hopeless, unfixable. They told me that they all love me and it kills them to see me sit in the hospital everyday. And it kills them to see me cry.
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Authors note
I will abb more later on but hope you enjoy and comment ideas