My mind is breaking
So is my heart
This is the end
Why should you have my heart?
My name means pure
Why am I tainted then?
My breath comes out in puffs
Hardly audible to the passerby
But it's all too clear to me
Her eyes hold distant for me
What did I do?
My body hates hers and his, why can't I be normal?
I'm the one percent that doesn't get recognition
We're just muddled together
I'm not Ace!
I am something different
I told my lover the other day
We haven't spoken for a week
My best friend is in the grayscale
Why can't I be on that scale?
At least people know she's there
I'm muddled
My questions are answered by more questions
I'm proud to be me
But who am I?
I wish to meet that sweet girl everyone sees
What monster am I?
Taking everything
I'm not any better
Then those seated on porcelain thrones
The population hates the sight of me
Another fuck-up and child abused
Mother, why must you do this?
The other day, someone told me that they looked up to me
How the fuck am I supposed to take that?
This broken girl has no gold in her cracks
Only crumbling mud and straw
Nothing's more beautiful than a drop of scarlet on a white surface
Ruining the pure
Bloodlust, pain, and suffering takes its place
This shit is getting fucking old
The pain is a drug
Leaving those around me
Bandages cover scarred wrists
Each one carrying a heavy burden
I want to watch the blood flow onto the carpet
Staining it crimson
Leaving me light-headed
My own high
Taking away the life from my body slowly
A deadly poison
One I've known since the beginning
Eyes gaze away
Instead of helping
Tears streak my stinging cheeks
Time to turn a cheek
My pain is nothing
Let the tears dry up
Leaving salt in their wake
As my body slowly fails me
Remember
This was all foreseen
It was preventable
In the end
It was their choice
Leaving me bruised
Blood slowly trickling into opened mouths
From the trees
I await his return
Sitting on gold
My heart is slowly breaking
But this is fine
Nothing can touch me
I am pure
I am only a child in your eyes
Not a woman
So I must travel
My eyes red
Can't you see it?
The end is nigh
As I give you one last smile
Realize I am purity for a reason
A perfect oxymoron
Tears in sanity
Leaving strange scars
As I wilt
As I fade
As I repeat my melancholy chorus
Salt runs down in rivers
Teeth gritted in fear and hatred
Know I never hated this
Or the being
But the sight
Razors and knifes making streets for curious fingers
Scars their own system
Crisscrossing and diverging
Like the veins of humus
All quite the curious sight
The fact of the matter is nothing is perfect
Nothing is pure forever
Nothing is as it seems
A smile holds all the pain of a frown
On the face of purity
Tears dripping onto the rough ground
As we leave
We go back to Gaea
Our bodies laid to rest in our mother
Just as we started
As all things should
