the black light behind my eyes [h.s]

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December junior year

*Harry's POV*

Between the walls of Carter James boarding school fun wasn't a thing that people were supposed to have.

it was also the only thing that people craved.

At our table during lunch the conversation was about the next fun thing that was about to happen: Sophie Bawler's annual Christmas party. This meant that about 20 of the most fun people were invited in her small dorm, they would have drinks and when they finally ran out of booze, they all would get stoned as f.uck.

The dream of every student was to be one of those 20 people and I was pretty certain that I'd be invited.

This was because of the fact that Sophie and I were best friends along with 5 other people.

We were all seen as people to look up to and all for very different reasons that we never understood.

"Sophie, how are you going to sneak 20 people in your room without anyone seeing?" Louis commented.

"Anne-Marie figured something out."

as if she was waiting for her queue Anne-Marie started rambling "Yeah i got a few people that are distracting so people can use their roof and Becky from hall F is going to take care of their hall monitor so that's about five more people, they are going to knock at Allison's door and she will let them use her roof to come to our room. " When she finished she looked pretty proud of herself.

"what if there's a bed check around midnight?" I asked, discovering a flaw in her plan.

"Well yeah I invited Matt and he's gonna hook us up with some sleeping pills"

Zayn smiled " you guys really thought this one trough. Let's just hope nothing goes wrong when Ally gets the booze."

"Shit Zayn, Ally does this all the time, she's the least of our worries" I said defending my best friend.

"Where is she anyway?" Ed asked.

"As a matter of fact, she had some spare time so she's getting our booze." I said coldly.

"How is she going to hide that much booze for over a week? that's way too risky." Ed said sounding worried.

"Well we should take turns hiding it then."

"f.ucking genius, Soph, I'll go first." I offered.

Ed turned to me "Just take the bag from ally when she gets here."

"Sure thing, I'll keep it for two days so you guys have to decide who's willing to take the bag"

"I think we're all okay with it to be honest." Anna- Marie said carefully.

"Yeah I mean we're friends for a reason" Zayn said.

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Cold stones cover my heart

sinking in like a deep sadness

sounding like a waveless ocean

smelling like trash

a feeling of grief in my bones

soon it will go

soon I will come

I closed my notebook and looked around inspecting my room. The best way to describe my room was to compare it to a modern arts museum , first of all it's messy and second of all no one understand why all this junk is here.

Sitting on my bed and inspecting my artfully clattered mess, I kind of see their point. I lie down on the bed and start gathering some courage to finally clean my mess up, but that's until my roommate Louis walks in a few seconds later holding two bags instead of the usual one.

"Did your mum drop some things of? " I ask.

" No, Ally shoved it in my hands, actually."

"She's back?" I sat up to quickly causing a lack of oxygen to go to my brain and giving me a fainting sensation.

"yeah, she's in her room so I won't risk going there" Louis knew I liked Ally quite allot but I always seemed to have a sudden lack of confidence when I was about to confess that.

Most of the time that confidence returned when I got pretty drunk and made out with another girl right in front of her.

But whatever.

If she cared I would be able to tell by her eyes but they always stay dull.

There was no sign we were mean to be a stereotypical power couple

"So we're keeping the booze for 2 days?" I asked changing the subject.

Louis sat down on his bed "Yeah, you came up with a hiding spot?"

I looked around for a lace we could hide it "What about the little room behind the closet?"

In my freshman year I created this little room at the back of my closet, during that time it was to hide some money and the occasional pack of cigarettes, now people are paying me to keep their access to fun there

Louis took the bag and put it in the closet "Yeah that works. Ally said you could take something if your thirsty and she also said that you should stay away from her water, I don't know what her water is but she sounded pretty determent about it so watch out."

"yeah I will" I said bored

once Louis made our room hall monitor-proof, he announced he was heading to Ed's room and he wouldn't return until late so I took this as the chance to finish cleaning my room.

But first I had to know why I needed to stay away from Ally her water.

When I took the bag from the closet and opened it, I saw what she meant. there was clear vodka in there, her favorite booze. I took the bottle and I already had a few sips when I noticed a little piece of paper stuck under the bottle.

I took the note and it said:

Meet me on the roof at midnight, I have something for you.

xxx Ally

I didn't really expect much because most of the time when Allison went out she brought me something but I still wasn't going to let down any chance to hang with her.

Seeing as I still had about 5 more hours until midnight I continued cleaning my room and finding some very weird, yet amusing things I forgot I owned like: the candy G-string I got for my sixteenth birthday and the painting of a penis gave to me when he wasn't allowed to finish it in art class.

"the assignment was a portrait, she never said it wasn't allowed to be of my dick." those were the exact words when he gave it to me.

I also found a picture of my parents that caused me to spiral into a darkness inside my head and fall on the ground to drained to move.

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