Is This Us?

Chapter 1

    I've never really liked school. But then I really didn't like school. I'm different well according to other people. They're right but not for the reasons they think. You see I have a personality disorder I'm not going to clarify because that's not how I want to be defined. Basically because of it I have trouble keeping friends I can't talk to people without being mean I don't mean to it starts off as jokes but I never know what's too far. I feel people getting upset or aggravated or bored with me but I just can't help it. Sometimes I feel like I have superpowers the power to break or destroy anything I Come into contact with. I know I'm being a real drag right now but I can't help but focusing on the negative and everything that has been has and could go wrong.

   You see I usually expect things to go wrong you could call me a pessimist but I see it as realism. Because every time I've felt happy since I was 11 something has pushed me further into depression one event after another. Talk about getting a ball rolling. But this is going to be my year and I'm not going to just say that like every other year I'm going to make it happen. Or that's what I was thinking driving to school my first day of senior when somebody break checks me for no reason and I don't react fast enough. Now I'm late for school waiting for the police and going to show up with my new car missing a head light and seriously beat up on the side where the lights missing. The officer comes to my window I roll it down.

"Can I see your ID and registration"

"Shit sorry"

    I scramble and start panicking which of course makes the process longer after what felt like half and hour I hand him my license and registration. He walks off to go run my information. After 20 minutes he comes back.

"Looks good. Can you run me through exactly what happened?"

"We were going down this road and I get over and he break checks me out of nowhere and I couldn't react fast enough."

"We'll check with the other person. Wait here please."
   Great as if I'm not late enough. On my first day too this is gonna be a great year I tell myself as I watch the clock and see 1st period start.

"Ok your story checks out I'll give you the police station's information and just use this when you make a claim"

"Ok. Thank you so much."

"Just wait here for about 5 minutes and get where you need to go"

"Ok. Have a great day."

   I say and then roll up my window and blast my music all the way to school as to not stress too much. I jump out of the car but accidentally close the door on my jacket. I try to run into the building but end up tripping and falling into the car next to me dropping all my stuff. I hurt my foot kicking my car get my stuff and look around to see if anybody just saw that ordeal. And I should've known that somebody would luckily it was somebody nice because they wait to laugh after helping me get my stuff. I don't recognize them which is weird because being one of the only openly gay men at my school for years makes you quiet popular and not always in a good way. I start to ask them if they're new when I see him. Alex fucking Fletcher and he just saw that whole thing go down.

"FUCK" I whisper yell

"Whats wrong?" the girl in front of me says

"Sorry Alex Fletcher over there" I nod my head his way "He just saw all of that"

"Is he an ex orrr...?"

"No he's just the hottest guy in this whole school. Even if he's a total douche bag."

"I see"

"Sorry. Thanks for the help with my stuff. My names Matthew"

"Your welcome and I'm Delilah"

"That's such a pretty name. Are you new here?"

"Yea I am. It's that obvious?"

"No I just hadn't recognized you. Since we're late I can show you to your class."

"Omg don't remind me. Late on my first day at my new school"

"What teacher do you have?"

"I think it was Mrs.Fletcher. Is there any relation to the hot douchebag?"

"Yeah. I'd appreciate if you didn't mention that to her. Me and her are cool shes the best."

"But her son isn't?"

"Shhhhh. I have her too come on I'll lead the way."

I give Delilah the grand tour we thought we were already late minus well. She's actually really interesting. We then arrive at Mrs.Fletchers room with 5 minutes left of first period.

"Hey Mrs.Fletcher this is Delilah she's new here."

"Matthew. You're 45 minutes late."

"Hey it's not my fault I got into an accident."

"Mhm"

"He really did" Delilah buts in "Sorry but I saw his car and the right headlight is broke and the sides all beat up"

"Is that so?" She gives me a sharp stare for a moment before turning to Delilah

"Hey Delilah I'm Mrs.Fletcher welcome to East High and what would your excuse be for being late?"

"I just moved here everything's been chaos."

"I'll give you this week and then I'm going to have to mark you tardy if you're later than 5 minutes."

She pauses and picks up her clip board

"Matthew you can take a seat next to Alex there"

My heart sinks I nod and walk back and plop my stuff down on the empty desk next to him hoping nobody can see how much I wanna get up and leave already on my face. I try to stare straight forward but find my self glancing over for the next 3 minutes. Not that I have feeling or anything for Alex but when a man is attractive he is attractive not much I can do about that. And I know myself I have to tell myself he's ugly or will end up catching feelings for this man. Then the bell rings and I drop my stuff again and he helps me pick it up. I know it's a movie cliché but his hand brushed against mine and my heart starts pounding. He walks away before I can thank him. I sit there confused because he wouldn't have even batted an eye any other year. No! I tell myself. He's just being nice because his mom was standing there. I shrug it off and head to next period